Behind the Scenes

Chapter 61

I'm not in my usual self when I arrived almost late at the Bini house for our mall show today.

I saw how the girls aside from Col and Staku looked at me and I think they already know what happened. I just hoping that no one will ask about it any time soon because I'm sure, I will cry the moment it all comes back to me.

Looking around, I noticed that Mikha is the only one missing here. I tried to act as normal as I can be. I don't know how long I can pretend.

My wounded heart is missing her, I can hear it crying and begging to be acknowledge but, I already made a choice.

Yes, and you opted to hurt her, make her cry and now.. she's vulnerable. Is it worth it, Aiah? You're being selfish because you didn-

"Ate Aiah!" Sheena's loud voice snapped me out of my trance.

"Bebe, don't shout, please." I heard Gwen pleaded.

"W-what w-why are you shouting, Shee?"

"Are you okay, Ate Aiah? we were talking to you and been calling your name for how many times but it seems like you were sleeping with eyes open." Maloi said with worried voice.

I don't know what to say, I'm so close at saying; I am not really okay, I need to breathe, I need to rest and I am dying inside.

"H-huh? I'm okay, girls.. just.. ahm.. just.. ano, I'm-"

"-Girls, don't worry about Aiah, maybe she's just swamped with school works kaya yan sya ganyan ngayon." Colet answered for me and I look at her saying thank you with my eyes.

"We understand you, Ate Aiah, just please.. know that we are always here for you, okay?" Jho said looking at me.

"I.. I know, Jho.. Thank you." I'm trying my hardest not to cry in front of them.

I heard Staku's loud sigh while looking at her phone, lightly shaking her head.

"Guys, got Mikha's message saying she's driving straight to the venue." she announced.

Hearing Mikha's name, my heart jump and begin to pump. I'm just holding to the fact that at least, I will going to see her later.

"Okay, I think let's get in the van na, tara, girls." Jho said and we all followed suit.

As we walk closer to the dressing room, every step I make is getting heavier. I'm going to see Mikha, I hope she's not that angry with me.

We saw her, already clothes changed and now on her make-up.

"Hi Mikhs!" the girls greeted as we enter the room and proceed to their own spot.

Mikha just gave them smile through the mirror in front of her. I almost forgot how to breathe when our eyes locked for a second.

Thank you God, she looks.. fine, my Baby is looking beautiful though the redness of her eyes are still visible.

I'm thankful that she is not making it awkward, I envy her for being an actress, she's a pro when it comes in concealing what she really feels and it makes me proud and sad at the same time.

Five minutes before our performance, I can feel my head spinning a little and my sight are getting blurry. Luckily I still managed to hold on the railing of the stairs going to the stage just in time.

"Aiah? okay ka lang ba talaga? are you sure?" Colet whispered.

Inhale.. Exhale.. Aiah, you can do this. Three songs and the steps that you mastered for months, you can get through this.