Behind the Scenes

Chapter 74

Walking to where the girls are waiting, I'm still thinking of what happened in the car, a while ago. I'm embarassed! I hope she did not see me looking at her.. hmm.. lips.

Aiah, the way she teased you.. it's positive that she caught you-

I just realized we arrived, when I heard the girls and I recognized the set up.

The girls greeted me quietly, they're already sitting on the couch for our interview.

"A? please tell me if you're not feeling okay, hmm?" she subtly whispered in my ear as we approach them.

I just answered with a single nod. Now, I can't face her, good thing, I'm wearing sunglasses.

Okay, I'm guilty, but can you blame me? I have been refraining myself for quite a while now. When was the last time we kissed? I don't even remember the feeling of her lips against mine.

You can claim those lips anytime you want, Aiah. What's stopping you?

Ah! You broke up with her, and you don't have the rights to be clingy and-

"Ate Aiah?" I was pulled back in reality when I felt Jho's hand tapping my arm.

"H-huh? Y-yes Jho?" I answered.

I can see them looking at me worriedly. I hate giving them hard time. I'm the eldest who should be there for them but they taking care of me instead.

"Are you really sure you can do this, Ate Aiah? We will have a short interview and after that, we will proceed to the stage na for warm up." Jho informed.

I closed my eyes as I let out a deep shaky breath.

"I can do this as long as I have you guys beside me." I replied.

"Please tell anyone of us if you need anything, ate Aiah, ha?" Sheena said.

The girls assured my safety and they successfully keep my nerves calm.

The brief interview ended with me, not saying anything and my head low. I never meant to be distant but it is just too much for me to face the interviewer and the camera.

My apologies.

I hope they will understand, though we didn't disclosed what really is happening to me.

"Okay guys, thank you. You have now fifteen minutes to prepare, you will face the blooms na sa stage and will do the warm up with them, after." ate Ica stated.

I can feel it, the panic is about to kick in again any minute now.

No. Please. Enough.

Sitting to calm my nerves, I'm trying to open the lid of my tumbler but my hands are both trembling and I can't-

I suddenly felt a warm hand on top of mine. The familiar touch that can put my mind at peace.

It's her.

I look up to see my favorite person with encouraging smile.

"Here." she handed my tumbler and let me drink.

"T-thank you." I look away.

She sat down on a chair in front of me and held my right hand.

How can I survive this without her? She's doing so much for me.