Behind the Scenes

Chapter 85

Mikha's POV

"Love.." someone's whispering in my ear.

I smiled because finally, I heard her voice. I didn't move, I love the feeling of light touches, her soft hand is giving to wake me up.

She's so warm.

"Hmm, Mikha Lim.. Love.." I can feel her lips on my bare shoulder.

She's giving me shivers. I'm getting.. Oh my God-

"Y-Yes, Love?" I decided not to prolong my suffering.

"I-I'm s-sorry," she answered in between sobs.

I instantly move to place her head gently in my arms, facing her.

"Baby.. it's not your fault." I whispered and kissed her forehead lightly.

"I- He's.. The g-guy-"

"Love," I called to get her attention. "Baby, you don't have to tell me what happened if you're not ready." I said, softly. "I will wait and stay here with you, I promise. I'm so mad at myself because I'm not there when you needed me the most." I added.

"M-Mikha Lim, please.. as what you've said, it's n-not.. uhm, my fault.. same as it's not yours." she sighed heavily.

"S-Sorry, I can't help it, I should've insisted to come with-"

"Y-You were the first person I think of.. when I broke down and.. you're the reason.. why I calmed down, Mikha Lim." she uttered not looking at me.

When I heard it from her, I feel like tearing up, I don't know why but my heart is about to explode.

"B-Baby.. Wha- I'm-"

"When that.. uhm, that guy.. tried to go near me.. I felt.." she paused for a few seconds before continuing. "it just happened, I.. suddenly found m-myself stood there.. c-can't move.. feels like my heart was full of air and my airways are blocked and I don't know what to-"

"A-Aiah, Love.." I cut her off, gently. It pains me to see how she struggled while thinking of what happened.
"Ria already filled me in with the details, you don't have to think about it again, Baby." I'm hugging her, tight enough to make her feel that I won't leave her, never.

"I feel.. weak, M." her voice laced with sadness. "What if.. it will happen again while we are on stage, in front of the blooms, in front of many-"

"No, Baby.. please, I want you to believe in yourself that you will overcome this too. The girls are here for you.. and.." I lift her chin gingerly, I want her to look me in the eyes. "Love.. I'm here for you, what ever happens.. you know I'll stay by your side. I never broke my promise, right?"

I saw her eyes filled with tears and my eyes did the same.

"I'm sorry.. for making y-you cry.." she uttered while slowly wiping my tears.

"I.. B-Baby.." I don't know if I should say it or not but fuck it. I sighed and hold her gaze. "I.. I love you, A." I whispered.

I can see how her eyes speaks for what she's feeling right now. I may not get a response, but I care not, because I'm sure that loving her is the only permanent feeling I want to keep until we're old and gray.

"M-Mikha L-Lim.." she called my name and snuggled into my neck. "I don't know w-what can I do without y-you, Love.. Thank you for s-staying with me.. I know you should be resenting m-me for h-hurting you b-but.. here you are, you never-"

"Baby, it's okay." I said while running my hand through her hair. "You don't have to say anything, let's just forget that part because I already forgave you." I kissed the top of her head. "Now, try to sleep na po, don't be scared Baby, I'm here."