Behind the Scenes

Chapter 72

After doing the Pride concept with the girls, I realized how important each and everyone of us in Bini as a group. The way they cheer me up, how they move to level my phase, I know it all. I am so glad to have them and I am now motivated to not let them down, I promise to try harder so I can finally be back on track with them.

Meoow

"Ling?" I called him.

He is playing under my study table where I'm sitting, because I'm trying to open my laptop and thinking maybe it's time for me to know what's happening in the internet.

I picked him up and look at him in the eye.

"My Lingling, you think your mom is ready na to know what's been happening outside?" I asked.

He answered with an angry Meoww. Okay, maybe I disturbed him enough, this little guy is so hot headed unlike Haru! I sighed and hugged him, when I heard my phone ringing as he jumped out of my arms.

Direk Lauren Calling..

I shut my eyes hard as I calm my heart. Inhale, Exhale.

Aiah, if you want to go back, you have to talk to him.

"Hello?"

'Hi Aiah.' he paused. 'I'm sorry to call you at this hour, but is it okay to talk right now?' he asked.

"Sure Direk, about what?"

'Okay, first of all, I want to say sorry again. I know it will not change anything.. but I want you to know that I'm being sincere and I accept that what I did was wrong. I misjudged this time and I'm not feeling good about it.' he sighed. 'Now, I want to ask you a question because we all know that the upcoming schedules for Bini is handful.'

"Direk, if you promise not to get in the way of me and Mikha, we are good. You know I never did anything that compromise the group. She.. she's actually my inspiration to be better. You don't know how you made me miserable because you pushed me to hurt her." I let out a deep breath to calm myself.

I have a lot to say but I chose to stop and just talk about business. I don't think I can trust him anymore after what happened.

'I'm so.. sorry for hurting the both of you, Aiah. If I will just turn back the time..' I can hear disappointment in his voice. 'I know you're not gonna trust me again, I understand.. but please.. continue your journey with the girls. I want to see the eight of you being successful, I believe in your talent and you're almost there.' he stated.

"I love the girls and I don't want them to feel worried about me anymore. I will do my best to redeem the old Aiah, Direk." I answered.

'Thank you, Aiah. I'm so happy to hear it from you. I can't wait to see you perform again with the girls.' he said enthusiastically. 'In line with that, ahm.. Aiah, are you... ahm, you think you can handle performing live this weekend in QC for Pride month?' he asked.

That question is actually running through my head because I'm aware that we are in the line up, but I'm still not sure.

"Direk, I know it's a big event for the girls, but I don't think I'm ready to face a big crowd for now. I'm sorry." I answered honestly.

I don't want to put the group in trouble just because I got anxiety attack while we are performing. That may cause a big problem, I'd rather miss the performance.

'Okay, I understand but.. please, promise me that you'll be running with us in Bini Fun Run.'

"Fine, Direk, I think I can do that."