New to Seattle

32. The truth pt 2

Arizona- I was raped!

My whole body went cold as I heard those words. I froze to the spot, while my brain registered what she had said. I turned back to see she had sat on the end of the bed with her head in her hands as she cried hysterically. I rushed over and knelt down in front of her.

Shell- I am so sorry this happened to you. When did it happen?

Arizona- Tim's anniversary.

Shell- That's why you have been so distant?

Arizona(nodding)- mhmm... I'm sorry.

Shell- no, come here. (hugging Arizona)- don't you ever be sorry for how you've reacted. okay? a terrible thing happened to you. I just wish you had told me.

Arizona- I just wanted to forget it happened.

Shell- did you talk to the cops?

Arizona- no.

Shell- do you remember who did it?

Arizona- I don't remember his name, I just want to get over it already, but...

Shell- it's not something you can get over that easily, Zona. trust me, I've been through it enough times. 

Arizona- there's one more thing.

Shell- what's that?

Arizona- I'm late... I'm never this late.

I felt my body once again go cold. This can't be happening right? I pulled out of the hug, not knowing how to react.

Shell- um, okay... I need to get some air...

Arizona- where are you going? please don't leave me. Can we talk about this.

Shell- I'll come back, i promise. I just need some air. I wont be long.

I gave her a gentle kiss on the cheek and left the room. I needed to have a smoke and work out what to say and how I can help her. Oh god, what if she is pregnant. What do i do? I cant leave her for this. I have never wanted kids. i'd make a terrible mother, that's if she even is pregnant and wants to actually keep it, not to mention whether she will want me to be involved at all. Knowing her, even though she never wanted kids either, she wouldn't be comfortable getting an abortion. I made my way to a store down the street to get myself some cigarettes. While i was in there i saw a pregnancy test for sale. I stood there thinking for a minute, should i buy one so she can be sure. Should i not? She needs to know whether she is or if its just the stress that has affected her periods. Fuck it, I picked one up and went to pay. i then headed back towards the wedding venue. I sat in the smoking area and had my cigarette. I felt sick about what happened to Arizona. All the memories of my past experiences came flooding back as i felt a tear slip down my cheek. Once i had finished my cigarette I made my way back inside. On my way back to the room I bumped into Callie, she was quite drunk already.

Callie- Shell!

Shell- hey, Callie.

Callie- where have you been? how did your talk with Arizona?

Shell- yeah, um... we haven't finished talking yet, I'm just heading back to see her.

Callie- how's it going... the talk.

Shell- Can we speak about this later, i had better get back to her.

Callie- oh, sorry. I'll be in the bar, away from Bailey's family. 

Shell- okay, see you later on.

Callie- oh Bailey will be here in around 3 hours. she called with an update. don't be late or she wont be happy