FLASHBACKS ➳ JACK GILINSKY

Chapter 22 - Superhuman

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//22//

"We always end up at the beach, huh?" I asked him, kicking the sand beneath my feet. I pulled my white cardigan that fell of my shoulder and put it on correctly again.

"It's our place," he answer simply.

"I miss this," I whispered, picking at my fingers. I didn't want him to notice, because I knew that he would know from my actions that I was nervous. I didn't want to him to know I was still nervous around him. I didn't want that to lead him into asking me questions. I rolled both of my hands into fists then let them go quickly afterwards. "So how were you after we broke up?"

I regretted asking that question as soon as it left my mouth. I regretted it even more when his whole body tensed, shoulders pulled back, hard facial expression and clenched jaw.

"That's none of your business," he snapped, walking away from me.

I sighed. I knew it was too good to be true. He was back to his bipolar self.

I began to play with my fingers again, looking up at Jack to see that he was only on his phone. I looked back down, feeling disappointed and a bit - I don't know.. crestfallen? He was probably calling Avery right now, because she made him happier, because she didn't make him mad when she hangs around with him.

I began to pick at the necklace he had given me, wondering why I was still wearing it.

Oh hell. In reality, I knew exactly why I was still wearing it, and it didn't make me feel that good inside. This necklace meant something to me, and he knew that. I guess I wanted to know where his feelings stood for me??

However, I didn't know where his feelings stood. He was always good at hiding his emotions better than I was. I didn't know if he playing me, setting me up for another heartbreak. I didn't know if he truly still hated me or not. I didn't know if he l-

Arms wrapped around my waist, and someone's chin rested on top of my head. I didn't need to turn around or hear their voice to know who it was. Just from the abrupt fluttering of my butterflies and increase of heartbeat, told me who it was. "I'm sorry," Jack whispered, kissing my temple.

I stiffened in his touch, and closed my eyes.

This wasn't what I wanted.

I pulled away from his touch immediately, and all the feelings I was getting, dropped. "What are you doing?"

"I'm just.. sorry for earlier," he said. "It's a touchy subject for me, because in all honestly, those months without you were the worst. I - I stayed in my room for weeks, having no energy to eat or shower or brush my teeth or anything really. I couldn't even sleep, because whenever I closed my eyes, I was haunted by the image of you." He paused, swallowing hard, avoiding eye contact with me. "I was broken, so hurt." His voice raised a bit, making me flinch. "I lost the girl I ever loved, how do you think I'd react?" he laughed. "You were the only one, my whole world, and then it was just all ripped away from me. I couldn't believe that the best thing that ever happened to me was just gone."

He sat down on the sand, not even caring about it or how wet his pants were getting. His hands gripped onto the sand, and I was pretty sure he was getting sand in his nails. "I was so fucking mad! I had everything I ever wanted in life! A girl I could care for and someone I desperately needed to keep me stable! I hate you for ruining that! I gave you my heart! I promised you my heart and you took it and gave it away!"