FLASHBACKS ➳ JACK GILINSKY

Chapter 37 - One and Only

The first and only(?) Jack's P.O.V. This chapter is also quite sad I think, but only this time, it'll show everything Jack feels about the situation.

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Jack Gilinsky's P.O.V

It's been a day. It's been a day, since I promised her time. That's the only promise I plan on keeping. After all the lies and mistrust, I figured she deserved this.

It's been a day, and I already felt like I miss a part of me. It's been a day, and I already miss the way her body feels against mine when we're completely flushed together, because she always seems to entwine us in her sleep. It's been a day, and it already seems like I can't live one more second without her here just walking around, talking complete nonsense. It's been a day, but it feels like a lifetime without her.

I held my ring in between my fingers, and rolled it around. I traced my thumb over the engraving I had gotten on the ring. I don't think she found it yet, but hers said, "'Cause my heart is yours," and mine said, "But this love is ours."

She absolutely loved Taylor Swift, so I thought that it'd be amazing if I got some of the lyrics of one of her favorite songs from her favorite artist written on the rings that promised our infinite love for each other. Well, the infinite love we had before I ruined it all.

There was rapid knocking on my door, but I made no effort to go open the door. In all honesty, all I wanted to do was stay here on this bed and never move. I wanted to lay here, staring at the ceiling, while I remember all the little things that made me fall in love with her in the first place.

I wanted to remember it all if I never get to see her again after this. All I wanted was to remember it all, before I would forget at one point in the future. I wanted to remember the way her lips stretched up into a smile when our lips were molded together, because I wouldn't get to feel the feeling ever again. I wanted to remember the way she carefully licked her ice cream since she wanted it to last longer, because I would never feel that happiness I felt when I laughed at her. I wanted to remember all the conversations we had about our future, because I would never get to feel as content as I did in that moment in my whole life.

I didn't get the chance to keep on thinking peacefully to myself, because the person banging at my door wouldn't stop. I reluctantly got op and stomped over to the door, basically throwing it open. "What do you want?" I asked furious.

Turns out it was Ivy. I had to hide my disappointment, because for a second there, I thought it was Ellie, but I knew that wasn't possible. She seemed unnerved by my rude outblast, but instead looked quite concern. "Ellie's missing."

I was always kind of ticked off that Ivy used the special nickname only I would always use to call her, because it was special. Although, I didn't have time to be mad about that, because what she said was for more important. My eyebrows furrowed, "What do you mean, missing?"

"I mean she's not in her room or in the garden or anywhere else in the mansion."

"Maybe she went to the beach. You know she always go there in the morning, especially when she needs to think," I tried to convince her, as well as myself, because all I could think of is the worst scenarios.

"No," she shook her head, sure of herself, "she would have texted me to let me know. She always does that in case Adam or the producers or the security guards are looking for her."

"Maybe she just wants time to herself," I reasoned with her.

"Why would she need some time to herself?" she asked, looking at me weirdly. Then, her mind seemed to click everything together, and she glared at me. "She found out, didn't she? Did that she-devil show up?"