🥀 Love is pain 🥀 ' Junoon ❣️ ' ( ✓ )

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Jimin's Final Note:

I’m standing at the edge of a life I never wanted, trapped in a reality that doesn’t feel like mine. Every morning, I wake up wishing it was a dream. The weight of my choices is suffocating, but it’s not just my choice, is it? I didn’t want this. I didn’t ask for this. My family’s happiness came at the cost of my soul, and now I’m left with nothing but emptiness.

I can still feel Jack’s hands on me, and it makes me want to disappear. I hate myself for not being stronger, for not being able to fight back, for giving in to fear. I hate this body that no longer feels like mine. The bruises, the pain—it’s all a reminder of how far I’ve fallen.

But what hurts the most is the way Jungkook and Taehyung look at me, like I’ve betrayed them. I want to tell them everything, to scream the truth at them, but I can’t. I can’t risk Yoongi’s life. So, I take it all—the anger, the disgust, the silence. It’s what I deserve for letting this happen.

And Yoongi… I see him in my dreams, hear his voice in the quiet moments when I’m alone. But he’s gone now, and I can’t blame him. He thinks I chose Jack. He thinks I turned my back on us. And I have to let him think that because the truth would only hurt him more.

I loved him, still love him, but love isn’t enough to save me from this. There’s no going back now. This is my life, and I have to live with the choices I didn’t make.

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Yoongi's Final Note:

I thought leaving would make it easier, that the distance would numb the pain. But I was wrong. No matter how far I go, Jimin is still with me. I see him everywhere—in the city streets, in the memories that won’t fade. London used to be our place, where we were free to love, to dream. Now, it’s just a reminder of everything I’ve lost.

I don’t know why Jimin did it. I’ve asked myself a thousand times, replaying every moment, trying to understand how he could choose someone like Jack over me. I hate myself for not fighting harder, for not seeing the truth sooner. But maybe I didn’t want to see it. Maybe I was too afraid of the answer.

The image of him on his wedding day is burned into my mind, that smile he gave Jack—a smile that wasn’t meant for me anymore. But there was something in his eyes, something that didn’t make sense. I couldn’t put it into words then, but I feel it now—he wasn’t happy. And yet, he chose that life, chose that man, and left me behind.

But if I’m being honest, I can’t hate him for it. I hate the situation, I hate Jack, I hate how powerless I feel. But Jimin? I’ll always love him, even if he’s not mine anymore. Even if I never understand why he did what he did, I can’t stop loving him.

Maybe I’ll never know the truth. Maybe this is how it was always supposed to end. But wherever Jimin is now, I just hope he’s okay. That he’s surviving, even if it means he’s hurting. Because as much as I want to hate him for breaking my heart, I can’t. Not when I know that somewhere, deep down, he’s broken too.

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