swords men

my mental break down

Going back to his home, tharn tried to go to sleep to no avail, he couldn't stop type from crawling into his mind, he then went to a room to then be practicing his sword moves again and again to where he didn't even eat.
Tharn then hit the subject and hard to be breathing heavily to then squeeze his eyes tightly has type snuggling up with that boy sulina went through his mind.
Tharn then moved back to strike again and again with emotions he still couldn't understand and the ones he could that pissed him off.
Tharn then hit the subject to hard to then step back to go to his knees to wince to eye down, his sword actually broke and it cut into his flesh.
He took in deep breathes has he looked to the blood that was coming out to then roll his eyes to get up to stumble a bit given he barely slept, hadent eaten or drank anything to then turn to go to his room, inside he was to his bathroom to clean up the mess to have ordered something to his room, to be sitting to the edge of the bed to chew to have his leg up with his foot to the edge to be eyeing down with a furrowed brow.
Tharn signed to turn a bit to move his hand up to then get his water to place to be his mouth to down to place it back to go into his earlier position to start to eat again what was in his hand.
He looked to the ground to try to think.
Why am I thinking of type so much? Why does seeing him with that guy make me so mad? Why do I even care? Well, I guess first I don't wear a condom and I don't want to catch anything, second........I don't want to fuck a whore. Don't want to be acting like my father, where girls come and go from his room.
Tharn then ate another bite to peer his eyes to the side.
Are you with him now type? It's 2pm. Have to be awake now, are you going to sleep with him again? Is he going to get you all the way naked and.....
Tharn then got up to throw the sandwich to the floor to walk about it has anger started to fuel him to place his hands behind his head to look forward.
Why is this pissing me off so much! Why do I want to be the only one who touches him? Was he telling me the truth about I'm the only one who....... Touches him?
Tharn started to breathe and deep has that started to make him happy for him to roll his eyes to walk about, he couldn't understand it.
Tharn then closed his eyes to keep walking about.
I made sure he understood things! He is not going to sleep with that asshole again, that his body is mine! Only for me! I do not fucking share!
Tharn then opened his eyes to then go to a lamp to pick it up to throw it to the wall has he got really upset to then start to shake a bit to eye down.
God! I have to get control of myself. I hate this boy! He has done this to me! I have always been in control of myself and my emotions then we fuck and this happens! Ugh now I cant get him out of my head! Why! I don't understand!
Tharn then turned to start to pace back and forth to look down.
There has to be a reason why I'm like this, whatever it is I know I can over come it. The sex, the fact when it happens all my pain goes away and I'm actually feeling lighter and happy and.....
Tharn stopped to dart his eyes.
I'm..... Happy?
He scoffed to then turn to place his hands to his neck once more to look forward.
What the hell! There is nothing about this boy! Nothing special! Fine he is some what like me, so what! Maybe I need to find another guy here who is damaged and get off of type! This is not going to end well any way! He is a duungis! The son of an asshole who may or may not have killed my mother.
Tharn stopped to make a hard face to continue to eye forward.
This needs to end....... But how? I told him not to sleep with that fuck again, told him his body is mine, told him we were going to sleep together every night.
Tharns eyes widened at the realization to then turn to go to a wall to punch to place his forehead to it to eye down.
I told him all those things and now I'm trying to end it? But...... Why do I feel so much pain at the mere thought of that? Why do I feel pain when I give him pain? Why do I care about him? Why do I want to have him talk more so I can know him better? I don't understand! What is going on with me! Why am I like this! What is wrong with me!
Tharn placed his hands to either side of his head to then sleepy go down to re place his forehead to the wall to dart his eyes over the ground.
What is wrong with me? Why am I like this? I need to be killing him, but even thinking that way is causing me pain..... But why! I don't get!
Tharn then got up to find something else he could pick up to then throw to eye over the shattered remains to breathe in and hard.
I...... Can't end this.....I also honestly don't want to....... This is going to lead to a very bad road but........ Right now....... All I have in my mind is...... Type, even forgot my sword, that has never ever happened to me before.
Tharn then slowly went to his knees to bend himself over to be in his world of misery to be completely confused to then turn his head to look at the clock to grit his teeth.
He kept continuing the time over and over has he knew at 11 that night, he was going to go and see type again rather he wanted that or not.