Falling For A Popstar

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As Lana lays on a couch in a hotel in Miami, she keeps wishing Julie were here with her. It's bothering her more than ever that she can't tell the world that she has an amazing girlfriend, that she isn't here with her. Lana knows it's selfish to think that way, Julie has her own life and her own goals, and can't make that type of sacrificies for her, but it still sucks. She founds herself searching for Julie's face in the crowds, leaving with dissapointment every night. Ironic, isn't it? Her first solo song debuted at number 1, she should be happier. She is happy, but not as happy as she would be if her girlfriend were here.
So, she chose to call her mother.

"Hey mom"
"Hey sweetie, how are things going? Are you too tired from all the perfomances?"
"Kinda, I forgot it was so exhausting" She replied. "I miss you"
"I miss you too, sweetie. We're going to New York for your next perfomance, your siblings can't stop talking about it, and your stepdad is obsessed with your new song" Lana smiled at that. "Will you ever come back to the town? There's so many people here that wants to see you. You don't ever come back"
"Mom, now is not the time to talk about that"
"I know, I know... But people here love you and miss you" Lana snorted at her mom's comment.
"They love me now, they didn't love me when I was a fat, bullied kid with no friends"
"Your family has always loved you, popstar or not, gorgeous or not. You know that" And that is true at least.
"Anyway I... I just wanted to let you know that I'm... well I'm in love" Lana said, and her mother, who looked just like her but with her hair shorter, blue eyes and  twenty years more, smiled.
"That's amazing, sweetie. Is it boy or a girl?" Lana took a deep breath before responding.
"A girl"
"Well, how is she? And who is she?" Her mother asked.
"She's a writer, she's... sweet and funny. You would like her, her name is Julie" Her mom wasn't looking at her, but could sense how in love her daughter is with this girl. "But there's a problem"
"Of course there is" She said.
"She's... well, she doesn't want to come out yet. And I try to be there for her, I try to be patient but... it feels as if she were ashamed of me, and I just don't like to have to hide all the time" Lana finally said outloud, and it felt as if she had lost twenty pounds.
"I would usually tell you that no one that's ashamed of being with someone as awesome as you it's worth it but... she's probably not ashamed of being with you, but of being with a girl. You don't know this, but I had been suspecting you were into girls before it hit the news. And I had senses that you were ashamed of who you were, because times have changed, but not so much" Her mother said.
"But it's not something to be ashamed of"
"It's not, but you can't control it, can you? There's still people that find queer people disgusting, Lana, and even knowing it's ridiculous, it probably still in the back of the head of many people" Lana stayed in silence, processing what her mother was telling her. "What I mean is... it's probably really hard to process that, and you should know that, I don't have to be the one telling you. All you can do is be there for her. If it's too much for you, you're not forced to stay. But if she's as special as you think she is, I'd told you not to do that, okay?"
"Yeah..." Lana said, her eyes a bit teary.
"It's going to be hard for her, and as her girlfriend, you need to be there"
"I know... I know. I love you, mom"
"I love you too, sweetie"

Lana understood that her mother is right, and for some reason cried a little bit while she hugged a pillow.