Chapter 11:Confused

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(Tamaras POV)
The next morning when I woke up i saw Lucy and Tim were here "MUMMY DADDY"i yelled excitedly i tried to move my arms to get to them but they were still bound to the bed but tighter then before "uh why do I have these stupid restraints on I just want to come hug you"i whined as i started tugging at the restraints Lucy took my hand and held it gently "baby do you remember what happened yesterday?"lucy asked me
"a little bit it's kinda hazy"I told her "could you maybe tell me what happened?"Lucy asked me
"yea I remember being at Angela's in the guest room and I used my phone to search how I could come here and get better so i could see you guys and I got two results so I chose the easy one I went into Angela's bathroom and I found her razor in the cabinet so I took out a blade and cut my wrists then I got brought here and i managed to get one arm out the restraint and yesterday when I cut it felt good so I did it again but on my neck and I don't remember anything after that apart from waking up now" I told her "tam you really can't do that to yourself tho okay"Lucy told me I nodded "mummy why is there a bandage on my head I didn't hurt it?"I asked Lucy confused "the doctor did surgery on your head to remove a tumor and now your cancers gone"Lucy said happily
"Wait really it's gone so I can come home now?"I asked her "yea but you can't come home straight away"Lucy told me "why not?"I asked "the doctor wants you to talk to a psychiatrist about this first to see if your well enough to go home"Lucy told me
"I am well enough to go home im not in pain or anything"I said "tam I meant to see if your well enough mentally"Lucy told me "do the doctors think I'm crazy?"I asked Lucy sad "no they just want to make sure you won't do this again"Lucy said as she looked at the bandages on my wrists "what will they do if they think I'm not ready to go home"I asked "they might keep you in there mental health ward or if they think your a really bad risk to yourself they might send you to a place that specialises in people hurting themselves"Lucy told me "can I just pretend I don't remember it so we can go home"I asked scared "no baby we have to talk to the psychiatrist okay"Lucy told me "why I'm fine I don't want to talk about it anymore I'm sorry"I yelled at Lucy and she just looked sad after a few minutes of silence I looked back up at her "I'm sorry mummy I shouldn't have yelled"I told her "it's okay baby"Lucy told me "mummy when can I take off these restraints I really want to have a cuddle with you"I asked Lucy sadly and I felt a few tears roll down my cheeks she wiped them away and got a doctor to take the restraints off me I quickly hugged Lucy and started to sob
"Please don't leave me alone again it was sad and I really missed you mummy"I told Lucy as I hugged her more "I promise I won't baby"Lucy told me
"Tamara the psychiatrist is here to see you"the doctor said as he entered her room with a lady who had a note pad "I don't want to talk"I said looking at Lucy and snuggling into her arms "what if we make it less scary I also find only having one person with you is better"the psychiatrist told us "mummy will stay with me"I told the psychiatrist as I buried my face in Lucy's chest and held onto her top Lucy stroked my back and I heard the door shut Tim and Angela had left with the doctor "shall we start?"the psychiatrist said as she tapped my shoulder i turned around and looked at the psychiatrist "mummy I don't want to talk about it"I whispered into Lucy's ear "baby it'll be okay you just have to tell the truth okay"Lucy told me as she rubbed my back again "maybe you could tell me what you did yesterday"the psychiatrist asked me
"I was staying with Angela because mummy and daddy were sick"I said "okay and what did you do yesterday to get here"the psychiatrist asked "I searched up something and it told me it was the quickest way to do something and I did it then I was here"I said "okay and what happened as you cut?" The psychiatrist asked "I don't know I'm too tired"I told her the psychiatrist tried to ask me more questions but it was so annoying so I stayed quiet I just snuggled up into Lucy's arms and stayed quiet
"Alright Lucy I'm going to ask you to leave the room so I can try talking to Tamara without her having a distraction"the psychiatrist said and Lucy gave me a kiss of the forehead then she started to ask me more questions i only answered some but the psychiatrist was getting angry at me because she wasn't getting any answers out of me i started to cry and i realised that the door was locked "let me out of her I want my mummy!" I yelled "your not leaving until you give me some answers Tamara"she told me "no you have to let me out you can't keep me in here let me out"i shouted banging on the door the psychiatrist krit trying to ask questions and i was getting so annoyed I started yelling at the psychiatrist "you better let me out of here before i slit my throat again!"I yelled at the psychiatrist whilst I was ripping the bandages off my wrists and neck I started to bash my wrists in the wall after a few minutes the cuts re opened and started to bleed "there now I need my wrists treating you have to open this door"i said but the psychiatrist pinned me down and the doctor came in and treated the cuts again the doctor put me on the bed and very tightly bound my arms with restraints again Lucy and Tim came in the room I started to sob Lucy held my hand "baby it's okay"Lucy said as she softly rubbed my cheek and then my hair a few minutes passed and the psychiatrist came in "also Tamara is going to need to stay at the psych ward for two weeks by herself so we can get her help"the psychiatrist told us and Lucy and Tim nodded I tried to protest but the psychiatrist wouldn't listen I tried to get free again but I couldn't after an hour I got so annoyed and the doctor unrestrained me I cuddled up with Lucy and then I fell asleep.

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