(Lucy's POV)
The ambulance came in just as she shut her eyes they checked her pulse and said it wasn't there they took her body to be prepared for her funeral I didn't know what to do I just got up and sat on Tamara's bed staring at the ceiling
then i looked around her room when I saw the notes on her desk I picked them up and opened mine it read:
To Mum,
Thank you for giving me the life I thought I'd never have and showing me good things in my life I know you probably are sad of even angry I took my life but I needed to do it you may or may not know what happened to me when I was younger but I'm glad you took me in even when Tim hated me you still loved me at first i though you would hurt me because that's what everyone did to me growing up but you didn't you never hurt me purposely and when you did you made up for it I'm happy you loved me and I love you too I'm sorry things ended this way
I really wish I could have gotten better but I knew that would never happen I'm happy I'm wearing your jumper tho it always makes me feel safe and loved and I'm glad I still have a reminder of you.
-Love Tamara xx
I started to cry then I wiped my tears and got in Tamara's bed I lay down on the bed and fell asleep the next morning I went to the station I first went to greys office "hey Sarge I wanted to give you this I was hoping you could read it to the others or something Tamara she umm took her life last night and she wrote these letters I also have this one for Tim"I said handing him the three letters from my bag then i went to mine and Angela's office "ange Tamara wanted me to give this you"I said handing her the letter
"Where is she?"angela asked "she umm took her life last night but she left these letters so I've given them to grey but I thought I should give you yours myself"I said I watched her open the letter then start crying "god she was still young"Angela said wiping her tears "what did she put?"I asked curious gesturing towards the letter "just how grateful she was she met me that she'd forgiven me about the first time we met and that she wants me to look after you and make sure you are okay"Angela told me I smiled "god that kid was like my daughter"I said crying again "I know she was"Angela said coming over to me and hugging me the rest of the week I spent planning Tamara's funeral and grieving her I slept in her bed and stayed in her room it was weird the house the silence but then came the day of the funeral I requested it be a closed casket funeral I didn't want people to see her I was aloud to see her with Angela one last time before they buried her she was still in my hoodie and she was buried with it after everyone else left I stayed and Angela did to everybody lay some flowers for her and I had gotten more this morning I placed them in her grave and sat on the grass but her fresh grave it was hard to believe that just this time a week ago she was alive and she seemed sad but she was breathing she was in my arms and now I'll never get to hold her in my arms ever again I missed her so much "you know we should come up and visit her every Friday evening"Angela said I nodded "that's a great idea"I said smiling up at her "I think we should head home soon it's getting darker it's already 9pm luce"Angela told me
"wait what I swear it's only been an hour since her funeral"I said confused "no it's been 5 hours let's get you home"Angela said we got in her car as she'd brought me here earlier in her car so my car was at my house we drove to mine and I got straight in Tamara's bed after Angela left I grabbed one of tams tops and held it to my chest her scent still lingering in her room and on her clothes.
With Angela's help Lucy was able to move on she found a nice husband and she eventually moved out of her old house she set up a wall in her new house it was painted Tamara's favourite colour and it had photos of her and then a frame with Tamara's death certificate and adoption certificate aswell as her adoption papers.
💘The End💘
