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(Tamara's POV)
Today was the trial and I was nervous about it I kept crying last night scared that I'd get hurt in prison or I'd never be able to see Lucy and Tim again I really hated myself for this for putting myself here for making Lucy and Tim go through this I kept thinking of worst case scenarios and what the judge could say but I stopped when I heard the cell door open it was Angela "come on kiddo we need to get you ready for court"Angela told me she lead me to the locker room and I got dressed in to a dress then Angela did my hair in two braids "let's head to the courthouse"Angela said leading me to the car "why isn't mum here?"I asked as we pulled up "she's inside waiting with your lawyer and Tim"she told me "okay let's go see them"I said as I hopped out the car and walked inside the courthouse Angela had hold of my hand and was leading me to the court room it was really big and there was a lot of people on the sides and the judge was at the front she seemed very strict and there were benches on both sides of the room Angela said that's where her mum and dad would be I had to sit at a table with my lawyer and I was told that I'd have to go on stand too court started and they were saying really confusing stuff then I had to go on stand whilst the other lawyer questioned me "Tamara did you know what you were doing was wrong when you shot your parents?"she asked "yes but they told m-"I tried but the lawyer cut me off "no further questions"she said then sat down "Tamara isn't it true you were admitted to a psych ward for two weeks not that long ago"my lawyer asked "yes that's true"I said "and can you explain to us why you were put there"my lawyer asked "I first went to the hospital because I umm cut my wrists then when I was at the hospital I cut my neck and was sent to the psych ward"I said "and would you say that you thought of cutting after you came back from the psych ward?"my lawyer said "objection you honour relevance"the lawyer said loudly "objection overruled continue" "well yes I did get some thoughts of doing it again but I don't think I would"I told my lawyer "okay and the psychiatrist cane in too see you two days ago what did she tell you"my lawyer asked "she asked me questions about random stuff and then about my mental health and she said that I wasn't mentally stable enough to go to jail let alone understand what I'd done was wrong"I said "and why did she say that?"my lawyer asked
"because when I was younger my parents killed a lot of people infront of me and told me if someone ever hurt me then I should kill them"I said looking down
"no further questions"my lawyer said then he sat down both lawyers kept questioning me and then the other lawyer said "although you were abused growing up you didn't feel scared to knock at random peoples doors for food did you?"the lawyer said "well no but that's because I was desperate it had been at-least a month since I ate"I said "and how many doors did you knock on before knocking on Lucy and Tim's door?"she asked me "I can't remember but it was definitely over 20"I told her "and what would you have done if no one gave you food"she asked "I would of had to go back home"I said "and when you we're staying with Lucy and Tim it took you how many days to tell them your name"she asked "it took 2 days but I was sca-"I said but the lawyer cut me off "thank you no further questions she said then I was being questioned more it was so overwhelming I just started to sob and pull myself into a ball "Tamara you can step down now"the judge said I went over to the table and sat down "Lucy is it okay if I call you to the stand?"the judge asked Lucy nodded she went to the stand "Lucy when Tamara came to you what did she look like"my lawyer asked her "when I opened the door she looked small she had a lot of bruises her clothes had holes in and she had blood on her top her hair was all over the place I could tell pretty quickly she needed help"Lucy said the lawyers questioned Lucy then asked Tim to come to the stand "okay and Tim I understand when Tamara first came to you guys you didn't like her very much why is that?the lawyer asked "well it wasn't anything with her it was more me when I was younger I was abused and seeing her like that reminded me of my childhood"he told her they kept questioning him then dad sat back with Lucy on the benches "has the jury reached the verdict"the judge asked "it has"the person said "what is your verdict?"the judge asked "not guilty by reason of mental defect "the person said "okay thank you I sentence Tamara Collins to 1 year at a psychiatric facility thank you valid take the minor away"the judge said then she hit her gavel on the desk the validated came over to me and took my arms but I started kicking them "get off me!"I yelled "stop touching me"I shouted but they didn't listen they took me to a car and put me in the back I was taken to the facility it seemed scary tho the balifs took me to a room and one of the nurses restrained me to the bed to stop me kicking them they pulled my clothes off and examined me I felt so venerable after a few minutes the nurse put a gown on me and then she unrestrained me and left the room I got out the bed and went to the toilet then I got back in bed when a nurse came in and started trying to look at me again I yelled at her to let go off me but she wouldn't she finally managed to pull my gown up and look at my thighs and arms after seeing u can't she left me alone and I just lay under the blanket on the bed and fell asleep.
