Chaotic Relations

Chapter 28

Hi guys, I know that I was late and I am so sorry for that. Actually, I was very busy writing the first draft of my father's book. So I apologise.

By the way, the next chapter is already uploaded on Scrollstack. If you want, you can check it out. The link is present on my profile.

Enjoy Reading!

Ruhanika

It has been a month since our lunch with the Rajputs and I have grown closer with every member in their family except Arshit. I guess he just likes to stay away. I and Jai uncle have bonded very well, Smita aunty is not very affectionate but she cares. Avyaan is an absolute cutie while I and Advait have become quite close. We have bonded over our shared passion for coding.

Nishant bhai apparently got to know my passion for programming from the talks I and Advait had at lunch and bought me a bunch of the latest electronic devices. I, at first, was overwhelmed. The thought of all those latest things did excite me, but I was not sure whether I should accept it or not. It wasn't like I didn't want all those items or was hesitant to accept them because they were from Bhai. I just wasn't used to the idea of someone spending such a large amount on me. Even the prior knowledge I had on programming was gained by practising on Pisha's old laptop, which was given to me after she demanded a new model.

But then I realized that this is my family. I don't have any problem with using old items of my siblings. Therefore, I wasn't sad about using her old items On the contrary, what I was upset about is the fact that my needs weren't treated with the same importance as her demands. If I wanted new shoes because my old ones were tattered, they denied me saying Prisha needs a new dress right now for the birthday party of her friend. If I wanted some money to upgrade the system of my laptop because it was too outdated and could not process the codes anymore, I was denied by giving the excuse that the budget at that time was too tight because Prisha needed the new iPhone. And then too, I wouldn't have minded thinking that maybe we don't have the money to support the needs of two children. But, this was not the truth.

Mr. Nihal Senghal had a well-established small business that was going well. They could have easily been able to fulfil both of our needs. A first, I used to think that it was somehow my fault for not being enough. Maybe, it was because I didn't dress well enough or did not perform well academically. So, I tried my best to improve all those things I thought my parents did not like about me. But even then when I failed to be the best daughter, I thought that there was some other fault with me that I couldn't diagnose. I learned to live with the fact that maybe Prisha was indeed better than me in many aspects.

However, coming here and living with my family made me realize that I too can be loved so fiercely. I am worth fighting for and there are people who would care and bring hell if I just got a little bit hurt. Maybe, Mr. and Mrs. Senghal actually didn't love me, or maybe they did at one point in time but it was one later.

Thinking about these things made me realize that over the time that I have been with my family, they have given me so much love and care that it has healed all the parts of me that were broken by them. The first step of becoming stronger is to recover from the hurt that you have faced in your life, and the best way to do that is to learn to let go of your past, of what you can't have and rather focus on your present and embrace the good things and positive aspects of your life.

This time, when god has given me a fair chance of finding my happiness and giving me such a protective and loving family, I want to be selfish for once and get all the love that I had craved all my life.