"Raven", my lips started trembling
"Yes love",he looks at me
"Please love me like you loved me in my dreams" I begged. Tears running down my cheeks.
" I tried Elora. But I think I've lost the part of me who once truly loved you. I can't love you any...
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I don't know if it's his pessimistic eyes or the fear of not seeing him again that has brought insensateness to my body. He's in front of me, peering at me intently as I can't stop my hands and legs from shaking.
The essential tremor is getting the best of me.
This isn't remotely close to what I thought would be happening when we'll meet for the last time. Perhaps. The first time in life my eyes weren't strong enough to look into his.
I left everything and everyone's expectations of me far behind to find the painful yet pleasurable experience of seeing him. Again. After everything ended, he evoked the connotation of both "pleasure" and "pain". The pain I'm ready to receive. Even if it tears me up.
This time. I didn't want his compassion. Those eyes which had a tenacious grip on my whole existence. Forcing me to wonder if there's another life so that....
"Elora", I look up forcing myself to maintain my eye contact. He doesn't speak as he's busy surveying my eyes. Finding the truth. Truths that are untold.
"You know no matter what I'll always have something for you. Be it love. Be it...", I look at him.
"Be it?"
-"Attachment"
"You Can't love someone without feeling attached"
-"Indeed",
"You didn't say you live alone" I try to ease the tension by changing the topic.
-"Mom and dad recently moved out of town. I will soon after my graduation"
"Ohh"
-"Can I ask you something Elora?"
Oh. I know this voice. I know what he intends to ask when he speaks in this tone.
"Hmm"
-"If in future, everything goes well, we thrive on our career and our paths cross again" He now tenderly slips his hand under mine and holds it firmly.
-"will you fix me by loving me again?"
Everything becomes immobile for a while. He exerts his hands to hold my hand tighter as they calm under his skin.
-" I was, am broken. I gave up on you 'cause I didn't want to see you struggling for me. But now that we're apart, the pain is no less"
A drop of tears falls on the back of his hands and he pulls me into his embrace. I burst out.
-"I'm so sorry Elora. I shouldn't have asked you this. I'm so sorry"
I throw my hands around his waist as I dig my face in his neck. His scent isn't helping me to let go of him. He continuously rubs my back as I keep sobbing in his arms.
