letting go (b.beckham)

chapter six

a l l i s o n

its thursday night and i havent asked brooklyn
if he's available tomorrow. ugh this is so hard
and so awkward for me! i hate life ugh

i havent talked to him since
the night he bought me food

idk. i am avoiding him these past few days.
i just dont feel comfortable around him.

i am just lying in bed, thinking about how am
i going to ask him if he's available tomorrow.
shit, i swear i wanna cry. i dont want to feel
this feeling ugh, i love him so damn much.

i sat down on my desk and opened my mac.
i immediately opened my twitter and i have
a lot of tweets from random people. i am
replying to their tweets when all of a sudden
someone knocked on my door.

"hey?" i heard brooklyn's voice

i quicky opened the door.

"why?" i asked

he entered my room without even asking
if he can he jumped in my bed.

what the freaking heck is up with this dude.
i just rolled my eyes and opened twitter again.

he's just lying in bed, playing with my rubik's cube.

after 5 minutes he finally talked.

"so, what time are we gonna leave tomorrow?" he asked

"what? what do you mean?" i said

"your teacher is asking me to go there right?" he said, smirking

"wait... how di-" i got cut off

"she called two hours ago and she asked if im available tomorrow so i said yes, so what time are we gonna leave tomorrow?" he asked, again.

"no.. you dont have to go there i can handle th-"

"9:30 tomorrow!" he said before leaving my room

"brooklyn!!!" i shouted

"9:30!!" he shouted back

ugh why is he like this!!!! he is just making me fall for him once again, harder & harder & harder. fuck. i swear, i will never be able to move on until he's here. i hate him so much, i hate him cause i cant forget him, i hate him cause i love him so fucking much.

...

i woke up with someone shaking me.

"ugh what are you doing?!?" i shouted and covered my face

"get up, cmon!" brooklyn said, pulling the sheets

"no." i said pulling back the sheets

"its 8 and were leaving in 9:30 so hurry up!" he said

i ignored him but he keeps on shaking me i stood up.

"okay!! okay fine!" i said

he laughed and he left my room.

"ughh" i told myself

i quicky took a shower.

...

after shower, i immediately ran downstairs expecting brooklyn there.
but he's not there. where is he. dont tell me he's not yet done.

"brooklyn!!" i shouted

"wait!" he shouted

after 10 minutes he's finally done.

"cmon" he said, i rolled my eyes and followed him.

i entered his car.

"i really missed this" he said

my eyes widen.

"i miss having a car ride with you, we havent done this for almost 2 years now" he said

"yeah" is the only word i can say.

i really wanna tell him that i really do miss having a car ride with him also!! i wanna tell him that i miss him so much, his kiss, his hug, his hands, his smell, everything!! i miss everything about him. i wanna kiss him so bad. i want him so fucking bad.

"btw, do you have a new guys?" he asked laughing

wait what is he saying

"i heard you the other night at the backyard talking to a guy named, jack" he said

oh fuck yeah.. i remembered the other night i talked to my friend, jack. he is one of the people i trust here in la. he is one of our friends here and he called me last night to ask some tips cause he wants to court this girl from her school. well, before he's studying in the same school as mine but he transferred.

"n..no he's just a friend" i told brooklyn

"yeah right" he said, smirking

fuck that smirk makes him so hot.

...

we arrived at school and everyone's looking at us.
i can hear some people talking.

"omg are they back together?"

"is that brooklyn with allie? are they together again?"

"she's such a slut"

i just ignored them and continued walking.

brooklyn entered the office and i stayed
outside cause i am not allowed to go there.

fuck this is making me extremely
nervous. what if i have a failing
grade or what if.... ugh this is  pretty
annoying. i hate overthinking!!!

after almost an hour of waiting they're
finally done talking. brooklyn left the
office with a huge smile on his face.

"what happened?"
"what did she said?"
"tell me cmon!!" i told him

he laughed.

"chill. go to your class now and i'll pick you up later" he said

"no. you dont have to pi-"

"see you later!" he said then he ran away

ugh he's so weird!! but cute. i love him
so much, so so so much. i wish i could
tell him all these unsaid feelings cause
its hard keeping this in myself. ugh

an: this is the most annoying chapter ever 😭😭 omg im sorry for this chapter 😭 what do u wanna happen next? suggest, suggest so i can make the new chapter right away 💕💕