letting go (b.beckham)

chapter nineteen

b r o o k l y n

"hey baby, meet me at 12? i miss you so much" i texted my girlfriend, holly. "yeah sure babe, miss you too!" she replied.

i havent seen her for 2 weeks now because we're both really busy but believe me, these past few days, weeks, months are amazing. no fights, no arguments, im so happy that everything's fine. holly and i are great. ive been the happiest lately. though, i can feel that my family have changed, i mean the way they treat me but i just dont care. they're getting mad because of a pointless reason.

its 9 am and im going to meet holly at 12. what should i do?

i went to the kitchen to eat my breakfast and saw romeo and dad eating while watching tv. "hey, good morning" my dad said. "morning" i sat and started eating. "any plans for today?" romeo asked "im gonna meet holly" i said taking a bite of my bacon. "oh okay" he said.

romeo grabbed his phone and started scrolling, i dont why my dad is not telling him to put down his phone but me? every time i use my phone while eating they'll get mad.

"look at aaron's new instagram post. allie's so pretty" he said, showing us a selfie of allie and her siblings, allie's so beautiful. shit, romeo is obviously trying to put me in trouble again. fuck. "uh, brooklyn..." my dad said, fuck. "did you already talked to allie?" he aked. i rolled my eys.
"no" i said. "brooklyn, why is it so hard for you to apologize?" i heard my mom said.

its been 3 months since they knew that allie's pregnant and they're all forcing me to apologize and fix all the baby issues with her. "why would i apologize? its not my fault!" i said, kinda loud. "brooklyn!" my mom shouted "look mom, i know what i said to her is not appropriate but im not even sure if thats my baby. actually im pretty sure its not." i said "i cant believe your saying that!" my mom said "i'll take a bath" i said leaving the three of them there in shock.

as i enter my room i can feel a lot of guilt in my chest. fuck, did i really said that? fuck. the last time i talked to allie was when she told me that she's pregnant, i tried to contact her the next days to apologize and maybe talk but she doesnt want to talk to me anymore. i even went to their house but she's not there anymore. i fucking dont know what to do. i told holly whats happening and she told me stuffs i never knew about allie, that made me angry. but fuck. im young and i cant be a father.

i opened my laptop and started stalking allie on facebook. i want to confirm things. is this really my baby or no? holly told me that allie is dating one of her friends from school, zac.

i started scrolling and saw a photo of her with a guy, i think its zac. shit. im just wasting my fucking time here. i threw my laptop away. fuck. now, im fucking confused!

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its 11:48 and im sitting here in starbucks waiting for holly. i just started not to care anymore like i used to. the baby is not mine anyway so why would i care. and besides, i got a lot of reasons to be happy.

"brook!" i heard holly's voice from behind. i hugged her and kissed her "baby, i missed you" i said "miss you too babe"

we ordered our drinks and started telling stuffs we did these past few days. being with her makes me absolutely happy. she makes me happy. i dont even know what will i do without her.

im happy that she's with me even though i have a stupid problem right now.

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i am about to enter our house when i heard romeo, dad, cruz and harper talking to someone.

"bye allie! we'll call you again later!" dad said "bye allie!" cruz & harper said "we miss you so much!" they all said "bye!"

obviously they're still talking to her.

i entered our house just as they ended the facetime i think. they all looked at me.

"brookie!" harper said "hey" i said, i carried her "we facetimes allie" she said. i looked at my dad and the boys and i know they're all expecting for a nice answer "great" i just said. harper doesnt know whats happening.

i entered my room and opened the tv and started watching a boring show.

i lay in bed and unlocked my phone. i checked twitter and i can read some tweets asking me if the pregnant news are true and if i am really the father. fuck. now, the public knows. its embarrassing! i cant believe this is happening to me because of allie. shit.

suddenly someone knocked, i opened and saw romeo "what?" i asked, annoyed.

"i just wanna say that allie is 5 months pregnant and you're having a baby in 4 months. brooklyn, man up. i know its not easy to have a baby at a young age but you have to man up. im gonna ask you, what would you feel if dad abandoned you? someday the baby will grow up and just imagine how painful it is to know that your own father dont even care for you, that your own father rejected you. i know you know deep in your heart that the baby is yours" he said, then walked away.

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