letting go (b.beckham)

chapter twelve

a l l i s o n

okay so i just arrived at
school and ofcourse, i
went here alone, even
though someone told
me last night the he's
gonna send me to school
today ugh.

-skip class-

..

class is finally done. i didnt see
lia today and i havent seen her
for so freaking long. i dont even
know what happened to her, i
cant contact her and she's not
even contacting me i dont really
know whats up with her.

i was about to leave the school
when i heard someone called my
name.

"allie!!!" i heard two familiar voices

i turned around and saw lia with...
jack?!

"oh my god hey!!" i shouted and ran to them & hugged them

"i missed you guys so much oh my god" i said

"lia, where the fuck have you been?!" i asked her

"jack, i missed you!" i said then i hugged him

lia explained everything to me, she told
me she went on a vacation and she lost
her phone.

we ate at mcdonals and we talked a lot
jack told us that he already asked
the girl he likes out and he wants
us to meet her. he seemed so in love
and happy and im so happy for him.
he deserves all the great things that
is happening to him right now. he's
a very nice guy.

"so.. allie, tell me whats up now? i mean, about brooklyn whats up with him? whats the latest news? is he nice to you? or i-" i cut lia off

"nothing" i said

even though, there's a lot of stuffs
i need to tell them. i know i am lying
but i dont think i can tell them. i mean,
i am scared of lia's reaction. ugh i just
cant tell them or her right now.

jack said he'll drive us home cause
he just got his new car right now.

first stop.. lia's.

cause lia's house is like
one step away from mcdonalds lol.
(over reacting level: 99 lol im so weird sorry bye)

we sent her home and now we're on our
way to my house. all of a sudden he asked
me a question.

"is it hard?" he asked

"what do you mean?" i said

"you're living with your ex boyfriend and you havent even moved on" he told you

"very very hard." i sighed

"but... i know you want to be with him again so bad and this is your chance, i know being with him is what makes you happy" he said

"i really want to be with him so fucking bad but how about holly? i dont want to hurt her. and i know that brooklyn's is going to be happier if he's with her" i said, holding back my tears.

"yeah here we go again, why are you always like that?" he said

"like what?"

"you always put others happiness before you, always! i suggest that you should give some for yourself you always sacrifice for others but you never sacrificed for yourself and thats not good" he said

i nodded.

..

we arrived at home and i saw brooklyn
sitting outside the house again... jack
parked the car in front of our house &
brooklyn looked at us like we're criminals.