letting go (b.beckham)

heyy

its so sad how i am starting to feel so alone again.

yes, i know this is not related to the story but i dont know anymore. if you continue reading this till the end. thank you for listening to my problems. thank you so much!

i dont know who to talk to about my problem, i feel like im loosing each and every one in my life. my friends, my family.. i feel like everyone's against me. i feel like everyone is mad at me, i dont know if i am just over thinking, maybe i am but fuck it. i dont know anymore. i feel nervous everyday before going to school, i feel like i have no friends anymore. even though, i have. i feel like everything is falling apart. i dont like to go to school anymore because i am scared that i am going to sit alone without friends. and that's my biggest fear, being alone.

i really dont know what to do with my life anymore. i am useless and shit. i dont want this anymore. i hate this. i fucking hate this thing. i just want to cry all day, and lock myself in my room and cry again until i die. i honestly dont want to live anymore, but i have dreams. fuck life. i swear, i fucking hate my life.
i feel like one day i'll wake up and i have no one anymore. i cant open this problem to anyone who's around me because i am scared they'll just think im over dramatic or they'll careless. but this is what i feel and i dont know what to do anymore.

i am so sorry for sharing you my dramas, i just dont know what to do anymore.

thank you guys for making me smile with your sweet comments about my stories. i love you all. Xx