letting go (b.beckham)

chapter twenty seven

allie's

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i was peacefully sleeping 15 minutes ago but then 2 annoying guys woke me up.

and yes, its thomas and brooklyn.

"cmon get up and tell mommy to cook breakfast for us now" brooklyn told thomas. few seconds later thomas is pulling me in the kitchen.

"its 6 in the morning, why are you guys up so early? go back to sleep" i told the both of them but they just laughed at me. "thomas woke up when your family left, they all said good bye and thomas cant go back to sleep anymore" brooklyn said. "wait, what? my family left?" i asked, confused. "yeah they left an hour ago" brooklyn said. "but why?" i asked, still confused. "your mom said that they have to meet their friend and then gemma and aaron needs to leave early because of their 7 pm flight" he said "oh shiz, yeah i totally forgot they have a flight but my mom didnt tell me they'll leave" i said, still sleepy. He laughed. "now mummy can you cook breakfast for us now? because me and your baby is hungry" brooklyn said with the most annoying but a little bit cute voice. I rolled my eyes. "dont call me mummy!" i said, but he just laughed at me.

I started cooking our breakfast. Just the usual, eggs and bacon.

While eating our breakfast, Brooklyn and Thomas are just laughing and playing and its making me smile. Brooklyn is really trying his best to make it up to him, since he didnt attend his birthday yesterday because he said he needs to take care of his girlfriend who is sick.. oh wait shit

I just fucking remembered. Brooklyn didnt attend Thomas' birthday!!!

Oh geez, how stupid i am to forget that.

I ignored my thoughts because thinking negatively wont help me. And thinking negatively might ruin our day.

"what do you guys wanna do? watch movies? go somewhere? what?" brooklyn asked.

i am kind of supprised because its been a long long time since i last heard that from him, since i heard him asking "us" what do we wanna do. its been a long long time since we spend time together.

"hey answer me??" he said to me. "what?" i asked acting like i dont know what his talking about. "oh nevermind, lets just watch movies cmon!" he said before carrying thomas and pulling me in the movie room.

"what are we gonna watch?" i asked him. "as usual, we will let thomas pick" he said then he showed thomas all the cartoon movies.

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we just finished watching 5 movies in a row and thomas is sleeping.

"today was fun" brooklyn said while picking up some popcorn mess the three of us made.

i just smiled at him because i dont know what to say. i feel so happy. we havent done this for so long now. and thomas is so happy. and brooklyn looks so happy too.

how i wish every day is like this. how i wish brooklyn is always here. how i wish we have a complete family.

but yes.. i fucked up

"thomas looks so cute" i told brooklyn, looking at peacefully, sleeping thomas. "yeah, you should thank me" he said, teasing me. i rolled my eyes. "i mean, without a very handsome dad like me you woudnt have a very handsome son like thomas" he said, feeling so full of himself. "i honestly think you should get over yourself" i said, rolling my eyes once again. he laughed.

"what are we gonna do now?" he asked. "i dont know?" i said, before unlocking my phone and checking my instagram.

a lot of people are tagging me and greeting thomas a happy birthday. some comments are asking me where is brooklyn. i showed him. "maybe you should go post a picture of me and thomas because some stupid people thinks i dont even care about my son's birthday." i laughed, thinking about how he missed his sons party yesterday to take care of his sick girlfriend. "i mean yeah i totally missed his birthday party yesterday but i care about him" he said, like he can read my mind. "its just so fucking annoying how some people think that i dont care about thomas. they are so fucking stupid. sometimes i read comments on my posts and they say that i am such a bad dad and that thomas doesnt deserve someone like me and i dont really care about my son and that i only act like i care for my family's reputation. they dont fucking know me and they dont fucking know what i am doing for my son and how i really care. they dont fucking know how much i love thomas and they keep on judging its plain stupid. they dont even know how hard i worked to regain your trust for what i did to you when you were still pregnant and by saying this stupid, pathetic lies they can make you not trust me anymore. i am just scared that i loose your trust again because i really care about you and thomas and they are keep on telling lies. " he said, getting so pissed and i feel so bad for him.

he is a really great dad.

"just dont listen to them. what important is what thomas thinks about you and believe me he loves you so much. i dont really care about what they say because right now, what i believe is what i see. and i can see that you really care about him and i you really do love him." i said, smiling at him. he smiled back. "thank you allie, for giving me billion chances" he said, i laughed so loud so that i can break the almost awkward moment. "yeah yeah sure, now stop our dramas because im hungry!" i said before running to the kitchen. "you are always hungry allie!!" i heard him shout.

i fucking missed him.

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after a few hours, we are eating in this cute restaurant near my house. brooklyn is feeding thomas and they are so cute. i took a picture of them and posted it on instagram without a caption. and now, people are starting to think that brooklyn and i are back together and some are hating me because they think i ruined brooklyn and sonia's relationship.

oh wait, shit. sonia.

"brooklyn? do you think i should erase this? i mean people are starting to go crazy again they think we are back together and that i ruined yours and sonias relationship. and sonia might get mad. do you thi-" he cut me off by getting my phone and staring at the picture. "no. dont erase it. its actually cute. just keep it. like what you said, dont listen to them" he said, then i smiled.

we finished eating and he paid our bill.

"i'll drive you guys home then maybe lets play a little bit more" he said, while starting the engine. "are you going to go home or are you staying over again?" i asked. "are you like asking me to leave?" he asked, with a sad face. i laughed. "no, no. i was just asking so i'll know if i'll sleep in the sofa again or in my room" i said, laughing and then laughed too. "oh okay and yeah i'll stay and no, you will not sleep in the sofa because you are sleeping with us" he said which made me feel shock a liitle. "what?"i asked. "because do you even know how hard to explain it to thomas why his mom is sleeping in the sofa?" he said, laughing. i ignored him and looked at thomas who is sitting at the back of the car while eating his oreos. "thomas! daddy is sleeping with you again!" i told him which made him jump up and down. i can hear brooklyn laughing. "okay now, sit down because if you continue that daddy wont sleep with you" i told him again and he took a sit. "he is so crazy" i said. "like his mom" brooklyn said, and i punched his arms slightly. "aw! im driving" he said, i punched him again before i burst out laughing.

"you'll pay for that later, believe me" he said.

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