letting go (b.beckham)

chapter thirteen

a l l i s o n

recap: "brooklyn, im deeply sorry and i fucking miss you... okay there, i miss you so much and i dont even know how i a-" i got cut off

.. by a soft lips.
his soft lips that
i missed the most.

..

his lips is the most
beautiful thing in
this entire world.

i pulled away.

"allie, i lo-" i cut him off

& ran away.

i entered my room and jumped
in my messy bed.

ugh!! no omg. why. why did i
let him kiss me ugh. he's in a
relationship with holly & thats
not proper. ugh no. no.

but i really missed him, that
kiss the best thing that has
ever happened to me after
almost 2 years. omg!!

when all of a sudden..
he knocked on my door

"allie, please open the door. im sorry. please allie, please. even just for tonight, please. lets act like we're still together, lets act like our relationship never ended, please allie even just for tonight. i miss you so much, please" he said

my tears are starting to fall.

"allie, please... this will make us both happy, please." he said again

i decided to open the door.

"lets be happy tonight, together please" he said

ugh those beautiful brown eyes
fuck it. why does he have to do
this!!! i fucking love him oh my
god. this is so fucking annoying.

he hugged me so tight, i hugged him back.

he pulled away and looked at me and smiled.

"so where do you wanna go tonight babe?" he asked, then he wiped my tears, then smiled.

oh my god!!! he just called me babe
i missed that, i missed hearing that
from him. okay i need this, i need
this night. he's correct, this is what
will make me happy. i should do
this even just for tonight.

i smiled back at him.

"wherever you want babe" i said, smiling.

he smiled and then
he kissed my forehead.
he held my hand and
he grabbed his keys.

we entered his car and he started driving.

while he's driving, he's smiling from ear to ear. i am just staring at him and shit, i missed him so much, i missed these kind of nights. i know that this night will not last long but i want to enjoy and appreciate this night. i love him but i know that we cant bring back the past. he's already in a relationship with another girl and thats the hardest part. i know he loves her so much and i dont want to ruin their relationship.

i got cut off with my
thoughts when i suddenly
felt his hands.

he looked at me and he
smiled then he kissed my
hands. i smiled back and
he continued driving.

..

after 10 minutes

"brook, i need to pee" i said

"ok babe, wait" he said

fuck, every single time
he calls me "babe" i gain
seven billion butterflies
in my stomach. oh my
god. it feels so gooood.

"okaayy" i said

..

he stopped in a mini grocery store and
i quickly ran to the restroom.