letting go (b.beckham)

chapter twenty one

an: hey guys, im so sorry for the very late update! ❤️ hope y'all understand!

a l l i e

its been 5 days since we're back in london and since day one brooklyn kept on telling me that "we'll meet tomorrow" but then he will end up telling me he cant make it cause he got important things to do.

like, wtf dude. just tell me if you dont want to talk to me anymore. in the first place, you're the one who wrote me a letter. i fucking hate him. i swear, i do. he's a such a douche. but whatever. its for my baby, this is all for my baby.

..

"allie! is this your phone?" my mom shouted from the kitchen, i didnt answer cause i am too lazy to move my mouth "allie, its ringing" she said. i rolled my eyes and stood up to get my phone.

i looked at the caller id, then rolled my eyes.

ugh, what?? is he going to tell me again that we'll meet today and then eventually he's gonna cancel the plan. ugh.

"what?" i answered the phone. "lets meet today please" he said. i rolled my eyes "then you're gonna cancel it?" i said, sarcastically. "look al, im serious. can we meet today? yes or no?" he asked, kinda grouchy. wth. "no." i said "wait what?" he said "i said, no. bye!" im so pissed. "wait wait. no no, please!" he said trying to stop me from hanging up. "brooklyn, im tired. i wanna rest, so please stop disturbing me. you've been doing this for 5 hell days now and im sick and tired of your shits" i said, obviously pissed. "but im dead serious right now allie. im sorry for what happened these past days its just i got things to do" he said. "yeah, im so over with all your excuses. now, bye because im tired" i ended the call cause im not gonna say yes again then expect that we'll actually meet and then he'll end up canceling the plan he made.

i went to the kitchen to get some water.

"what did he said?" mom asked "who?" i asked her even though i know who. "brooklyn" she said, sarcastically. "it doesnt even matter" i said. "yes it is" she said "nope!" i said, while leaving the kitchen.

...

well its 7 pm and im almost 6 months pregnant and all i wanna do is lay in bed and watch or cuddle with my pillows. i swear, i hate being alone but i dont want to be around people lol

i started watching random tv shows when all of a sudden a random news pop out.

"Brooklyn Beckham and Holly Ramsay officially broke up. Is this because of Holly's cheating news or is this because of  the rumors that Brooklyn is having a baby with her ex gir-" i shut the damn tv off.

this world if full of damn crazy people. and im pretty sure im one of those because i got so crazy with a damn douche boy. i freaking hate it. ugh.

...

its almost the midnight and idk why i am not yet sleepy. but i should force my self to sleep because sleeping so late is not good for my baby.

my phone started ringing again, i checked and its call from brooklyn.

i rolled my eyes before answering. "what again?" i asked, sarcastically. "please open the door. im outside" he said. my eyes widen. "wait? what? are you serious?" i asked him. "yeah, please" he pleaded. i stood up to check the window.

.. and he's there, standing with a pair of paper bags in his hands while freezing because of the cold air.

this is the first time i see him again after the talk and idk what i am feeling. i am supposed to be mad at him but why is giving me tons of butterflies in my stomach again? why am i feeling so happy to see him?

"hey allie, are you still there? please open the door. its pretty cold here" he said, interrupting me from day dreaming. "ahh.. yeah yeah, just be quiet cause everyone's sleeping and idk how are they gonna react if they knew you're here." i said. "yeah sure just please let me in, im freezing" he said. and yeah, he's obviously freezing.

i ran downstairs and opened the door.

i immediately pulled him up to my room after i opened the door because i dont want the people in my house to see him here because im scared of their reactions.

i closed my room door.

"okay?! what are you doing here at 12 midnight and i told you that i ca-" he cut me off. "allie, i wanna talk to you about the baby please" he said, looking straight to my eyes and then my belly. "okay, since you're already here then lets talk. so what do you wanna talk about?" i said sitting at the edge of my bed.

he sat right next to me. "i admit that my reaction was so fucking rude, and these past few weeks ive been such an asshole for making my self believe that this is not my baby. but i know its my baby its just someone's telling me that its not. but i would be the luckiest man on earth if you forgive me and if you let me be the father to our baby." he said, sincerely.

fuck. he's making my heart melt.

he smiled. "and i know that if you forgive me its because of the baby, i know that if you forgive me its because you dont want the baby to grow up without a daddy, and i know if you forgive me its not because you forgive me for everything and its not because you are willing to be with me again and raise a family. but allie, ive been so blind and fucked up with everything. i got into a relationship where i made my self believe that i am not in love with you anymore. but all these times its not holly that i see growing up with, its not her that i see raising cute little babies with. i made my self believe that its her, but its not. its you, its you that i see my future with. its you that i love, its you, its always you."

i looked at him, shocked.

"i know its hard to forgive an asshole like me, but i'll do all my best to win you back. i want to be with you. i want to raise a family with you. i know we're still young but i love you so much. i promise, i'll stay and do all my best for you and our baby." he said, then he kissed my forehead.

"i love you allie, so much"

an: hey guys, i promise. i'll update as soon as possible. 😂❤️ hope you guys liked this chapter and please comment your thoughts and suggestions for the story! thank you ❤️