𝐏𝐨𝐞𝐦𝐬 𝐂𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

STILL PROCESSING

STILL PROCESSING

I bumped my head so bad
I woke up loving a far away lad
'Coz finally I finished an excruciating chapter
Thought I deserve to choose myself a little longer

Celebrating the previous chapter's goodbye
The struggle in academics won't leave my mind
This time, to myself - I'll be kind
Smiling while staring at the sky

Countless seminars and trainings filled my mind
They all said, "You'll feel lost, but soon you'll find -
Your purpose as you face the reality of the world
It's bigger and harsher than you thought it could

I'm fumbling for the warmth of my parents
Yet, they're telling me to walk on my own
"Darling, you have grown"
Soul's still a kid, mind's not yet 'bout paying rents

Sighing all day while lying in bed
"A couch potato," as what they said
I wanted to work on my assigned part
But I didn't know where should I start

Mind's roaring like a thunder
Furious of little inconvenience
Hoping to have the patience
Who's really the enemy? I wonder

Indolence is such a curse
Didn't know it'll make me worse
But I guess, a little rest won't hurt
Yet, I'm guilty like a defendant in court

There are times that I'd feel life's surreal
Overwhelmed with problems that I can solve if I'm calm
Fixing it can be easy as putting a lip balm
But something's not healed and I don't know what to feel

Still the awkward lonely girl despite her certificates and award
They said, I learned to smile but I am still a coward
But of all the uncertainties I face right now
God gave me a man who treats me like a sacred vow