venus is BACK (haha joke of the century) I’m just updating because yea, I’m going on an almost full blown hiatus soon which sucks ass because as trashy as the site is, there’s a hell lot of people I love and enjoy; this is weird because all I’ve been doing recently is just otp fics and it’s so weird to be writing straight holy cow. also i can't think of a title so excuse it.
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“And we have Luhan in the house today!”
(actually I’m not, I just want to curl up in bed or be in the studio but manager nim says I have to please my fans)
“Yeah, I’m really glad to be here.”
“And he’s back! Bigger, better and brighter! How do feel being a megastar?”
“It’s cool, I guess.”
“Cool isn’t the word, but you must be used to all this! Fame! Wealth! Blitz! No one can really say that they broke the world at the age of twenty three! You’re the best!”
“Tell me! How’s life? Busy? Harsh? It must be crazy!”
“It’s okay, I guess.”
“Oh you humble man! Always making sure your fans don’t worry! Tell me every bit of your life!”
(I wake up, I wake up cold and alone, I wake up to the cold harsh world, without arms around my waist and words ghosting over my ears like a lullaby, I wake up to an empty bed and a terrible life, most days I don’t even want to get up)
“I uh, wash my face and-“
“No grapeseed oil or million dollar Swiss Apple lotion?”
“What’s breakfast like? Ginseng soup and herbal mix?”
(back when everything was okay, better than okay, he used to make breakfast-we used to make breakfast. oats and berries and greek yogurt and angel cake and tarts and cream because he was such a sucker for greek yogurt and all things dainty, just like he was; it was french toast drizzled with glistening golden maple syrup, just the way he liked it, and the comic strip from the paper. back when the sun still shone warm, breakfast was kisses-sweet, even when we had to get up at an odd hour of the morning, he'd wake me up with a kiss. I still wake up to his kisses, he's just never there when I open my eyes.)
“No, then I eat anything I find or rather, what the crew finds and I head out.”
“It must be crazy, I hope you eat well!”
(it was crazy, a good kind of crazy, the let’s just lie in bed for five minutes more please and why the hell did you wear my red beanie it was my good luck one kind of crazy, it used to be the let’s just ditch practice and sleep and the good night, I love you more than you love me kind of crazy. back when the world spun rose from west to east, back when the sun rose from the west and set in the east, back when I could feel your heartbeat against mine)
“Yeah I do, no it’s okay for me. I’m used to it.”
“Even for a veteran like you it must be nuts! Ridiculous! Terrible! You noble man! No wonder you’re so famous!”
“It’s okay, I like music anyway.”
“Music! Let’s talk about your music! Just how do you pull out billion dollar songs and mvs? I hear you do all the composing and writing and producing yourself!”
“I don’t know, it just comes.”
“Then I wish it’d come to me! There must be a secret!”
“I don’t keep secrets?”
(there’s no secret, none at all. all you gotta do is get your heart broken. just fall in love and see the stars and get your world smashed. Jjust give your heart and soul and your everything and let your sun be taken away. make him do it. force your partner to break it so much it hurts. that’s it)
“Haha! You don’t need to tell your secrets if youy don’t want to! Let’s talk about you! You started from a group right? Eksow or Esso or XO or whatnot!”
“EXO.”
“Ah yes, Exo! Do you still chat with your members?”
(yixing calls and so does xiumin. they ask if I’m okay and suho texts me ever so often to wrap up and drink plenty. kyungsoo, he sends me recipes and they’re the only thing I can cook. jongin hardly calls, as does chanyeol. baekhyun is still baekhyun, just mellow and grown up. jongdae’s voice is all stony and yifan is just yifan, cool city guy, straight outta guangzhou. tao is always in a hurry but he still sends emojis everytime, peaches and hearts and angels like a teenage girl. and him, he just is him)
“they call and ask how I’m doing but some don’t really talk.”
“Awwwww, ain’t that cute! You’re all still a family!”
(i fucking wish I was still family, god help me)
“Yeah it’s cool and stuff.”
“Is there anyone in your life? Like a significant other? Hmmmm?”
“There was.”
“I see the past tense! Thank god you’re still on the market! Your fangirls would die if you weren’t!”
“Uh yeah.”
“Did the she ditch you?’
“No, we didn’t have a clean break. I just, you know, and it’s been hard.”
“Him? What happened?”
(He left because I couldn’t keep a promise. He left because I was lusting after the fame game, he left because I fucked up one too many times, he left because I couldn’t keep his heart)
“I…I messed up.”
“You?”
“Yeah, I just did really bad and all.”
“Everyone makes mistakes, it’s okay! Do you talk to him still?’
“We fell out real bad and yeah, we don’t talk.”
(i’ll never look at sunsets ever. when he walked away he took the sun with him, and that expression in his eyes. it was that of the sunset. he left me the stars and the moon, but what are stars when I can’t see them in the city light? he took my world, he took my life, why didn’t he just take the galaxy too?)
“Have you ever tried talking to him?”
“Who do you think my songs are for?”
“Aww, that’s so sweet. You’re totally boyfriend material!”
(it’s not, it’s just me kidding myself)
“If there’s one thing you could say to him, what would it be?”
(come back, I love you. I’ll do better)
“Listen to my new song.”
“Haha! Good one! But yes, do listen to Love Is Not Over by Luhan!”
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a/n: what was that but okay. dedicated to all the luhan babes out there (i'm sorry but if i wrote an imagine for every last one you Luhan stans I'd be doing at least fifteen) I reckon I have over forty requests (kill me i'm so so sorry) so I really have no choice but to group you guys up. i'll tag you all later when i have the time :( I don't want to write one for every single one of you because a) i don't feel for this book b) the writing here is a punch in my stomach c) my stuff is becoming cliché d) no one really reads this anyomore-like in #74 i have 1.03k reads and votes in the tens. that roughly translates to a 25:1 views per vote. which i can't blame you all because this book is just :( and people never ever answer my call to see if they're alive. shoutout to DanceInTheSilverRain for going through all this, and happy 78th imagine! tell me your thoughts and drop a vote if you can :)
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