Bound to you. (a Peddie story)

Getting better

A/N - hey guys, I'm currently suffering from a mild case of heartbreak so sorry if this chapter is crap! I wont be able to upload tomorrow night cause im at a sleepover. Blame my friend not me! I will make this an extra long chapter tonight to make up for it (or at least attempt to. :D ) i am also going to change the front cover of this story to remove Rufus so what colour scheme do you think i should make it?

Patricia's POV

I struggled to even look at her. She was so much like Rufus, her eyes, it was like i could see rufus through them, every time i saw her, i visioned rufus rapeing me.

I was getting really bad, i wasn't well enough for school, Eddie left every morning for school and left CJ with trudy. I couldnt even be a mother to my daughter. She had to drink formula milk, thats how little everyone trusted me with her. I dont blame them.

I needed cheering up. Badly. I just wanted some reassuring. Some comfort.

I was lay on mine and Eddie's bed, crying, thinking of how i was a terrible mother, why did i ever think i could do this? Now i understand why Eddie lied. It would have been so much better with Eddie being the father. Then maybe i could go on.

There was a knock on my door.

Eddie's POV

Patricia had been so bad recently, i couldn't even trust her with our daughter, knowing that she could break down. She needed a boost, something to pick her out of the gutter. I thought i was that, i guess i cant be everything, just like a five year old kid cant be an astronaut, fireman and president. I was a shoulder to cry on but there was one person who could get her out of this rut and thinking on the bright side if things, luckily for me, that one person was on their way to Anubis house right now!

Patricia's POV

"Please go away Trudy, i'm not in the mood to talk." i said in the direction of the door, wipin away a few runaway tears. She knocked again.

"Trixie baby, it's not Trudy." a familiar and reassuring voice said through the door. "can i come in?"

I ran to the door and flung myself into her arms. "BETH!" I said as i hugged her tight.

"Come on baby, lets sit down, i have something to tell you that might make things more clear, then we will get on to your...issues." she told me, pulling me to the bed. She knew me like no one else, i was so glad she was here.

"Okay, what is it?" i asked curiously. Beth had never kept a secret from me before and this seemed serious, making me forget why i was crying.

"This will sound strange so let me explain fully and save all of your strong minded comments until the end." she started.

I nodded.

"The women you know as mum, she isn't your mum. Not biologically anyways, legally she is and always has been. You see, i was your mums PA as you know and i had just came back from maternity leave with a two month old Jerome. Jerome's father was serving a year in prison for theft and i had been disowned by my family. Leaving me alone. Your father, he was a bad man, he took this for granted, i was broke, tired, confused, stressed, with mild post natal depression, no where near what you are suffering from. And i regret it dearly for some reasons, but it brought me you so its also a blessing. Your father payed me to sleep with him, just once, i was desperate and your parents had just found out they couldnt have any more children because of your mother, meaning their relationship was strained. Then i fell pregnant with you and piper, your parents said i had to have you and they would adopt you properly so the two of you were legally theres. I was allowed to see you but not tell you, ever. Im sorry Patricia but you are my daughter, through and through, Jerome is your half brother and Poppy your half sister. I love you so much Trixie. Im sorry."

I couldn't believe it. I wasn't at all mad, i was happy. I jumped into my mums arms. "I knew I loved you more than linda for a reason." i had always called my 'mum' Linda ever since she shipped me off to boarding school. I didn't like her at all. "Does Jerome know?" i asked.

"I told him over video chat last night when he and Eddie asked me to come here as soon as possible."

I was so glad.

After we talked for hours about childhood memories and embarrassing things. We ended up lay flat on our backs on my bed and the tricky subject came up.

"How are you dealing with the post natal depression?" she asked. Propping herself up onto her elbow to face me.

"Not well, i cant look at her without seeing him."

"dont think about it." she told me. "Cara-Jane is Eddie's daughter, not Rufus. Remember that. You need to forget Rufus, he is gone for good, it will all be alright, she is still your daughter."

And with that simple statement, i knew i could do it. I could be her mum. I was ready.

Get. Out. Of. My. Life. Rufus. Zeno.

And with that, he was gone.

"So whens the wedding?" Mum asked, moving on to a cheerier subject.

"Not sure, we were thinking sooner rather then later. Its already september so a small and simple wedding with close family and friends in late october or early november. Either that or wait until spring."

"I think october sounds nice, but we will have to get a wiggle on if you want it all done by then." i knew what this meant. Shopping and wedding planning. As long as I had my mum here to help. "Trudy said I can crash here as long as I want and she will bring down the air bed thingy for me to sleep on, so i can stay for all the planning."

"Good, you will be staying a while then, im glad you are." i told her with a hug.

"So who's gunna be your maid of honor?" she asked.

"Joy, she is gunna be the only bridesmaid though as there are too many girls to choose from. I dont think i can get away with joy, nina, mara, amber, piper and poppy as my bridesmaids, not to mention Eddie's sister Macey and Sarah. Oh and Cara."

"Good idea, did you hear about Ashley?" mum asked sitting up an facing me.

"No what?"

"Her Tuma is pretty much gone now, your big brother Josh said that she will live to watch Sarah walk down the aisle. Isn't that such great news?"

"Sure is!" i replied. "I should ring Josh, to pass on my congratulations."

This day couldn't get any better, my mum was here, Rufus was out of my head and now my sister-in-law's Tuma has been removed.

I was back in business, the old Patricia was here once again. I could face anything life throws at me - even wedding planning- which was top of the agenda for tomorrow. Saturday.