AMNESIA BABE ( MIEFER FANFIC )

RETURN 2.0

Mika's Pov

"Josh......." I greeted him and despite being sad and unsure I still managed to smile to him.

"Are you okay?" he asked while he's making his way inside my condo.

"Hmmmm I guess" I answered and this time hindi ko na napigilan ang lungkot. I find it so unfair to do this pero mas unfair kung papatagalin ko pa.

"Mukhang hindi nga ata. By the way bakit mo nga pala ko pinapunta dito?" Tanong ni Josh at umupo kaming dalawa sa dining table.

"I need to tell you something" Nakayuko at nahihiya kong sagot sa kanya.

"Na basted na ko?" he asked at nagulat ako. napatingin ako sa kanya and I saw him giving me an awkward smile.

"Josh I don't want to hurt you" I said and looked away again. Ayokong makitang nasasaktan ang isang taong kasing bait ni Josh.

"Miks just be honest mas masasaktan ako kung magsisinungaling ka sakin" he seriously told me and held my hand, the guilt is killing me pero tama sya I need to be honest.

"Pero Josh..." but I still cant find the right words to say, sa paraan na hindi sya masasaktan.

"Mas masasaktan ako pag sinasaktan mo yung sarili mo"

"Josh You're a nice guy you don't deserve this. Im sorry"

"Sshhhh believe it or not Miks hinanda ko na yung sarili ko sa possibility na mangyayari to so don't apologized. Im sorry kasi nagulo ko pa yung feelings mo, kasi may naibigay ka pang konting konting love for me na sana para kay Kiefer. Im sorry for making your feelings confused"

"Im sorry I didn't mean to hurt you"

"But you already did but Miks loving you is a learning experience for me. Alam mo masaya ko kasi naging honest ka. Hindi mo ko pinaniwala na mahal mo ko kahit hindi. Naging matapang ka para panindigan yung taong mahal mo. So Miks masaya ko para sayo. Masaya ko kasi kahit nasaktan ko ang mahalaga masaya ka"

"How can you be that selfless? You have all the right to get mad at me right now pero bakit ang bait mo pa rin?"

"Because I do believe that God sent me to help you and Kiefer. Para may marealize kayong dalawa. You know how much faith I have to God so I do believe that maybe God is up for something. I belive He has His own plans for me that's why I am not feeling any bitterness at all kasi I trust His plans. And he allowed me na mahurt pero hindi magalit. Na masaktan pero at the same time maging masaya kasi alam ko magiging totoong masaya na yung mahal ko" Josh explained which melts my heart. Kung wala lang sanang Kiefer baka pinili ko si Josh kasi alam ko mabuti syang tao at mamahalin nya ko.

"Nakakainis ka! Masyado kang mabait kaya lalo akong naguilty pero lalo ko ring narealize na hindi kita deserve. You deserve better and I know it's not me. Im sorry Josh sorry kung nasayang yung mga panahon at oras mo para sakin Im really sorry" kahit na sabihin nya pang okay lang ang lahat I still feel the guilt, he's too nice to for me at naniniwala akong mahahanap nya rin yung babaeng para sa kanya.

"You know Miks if there's one thing I regret yun yung pinaniwala ko ang sarili ko na pwede mo rin akong mahalin tulad ng pagmamahal mo sa kanya. Na someday you will also looked at me the way you looked at Kiefer. Alam ko naman ever since that incident sya na lang lagi ang nasa isip ko. You smiled with me pero alam kong pilit lang ang lahat. You laughed with me pero alam kong ginawa mo lang yun para hindi ako magworry. You cried to me at nung tinanong kita kung bakit ang sabi mo lang kasi masakit ulo mo pero alam ko puso talaga yung sumakit sa'yo. I thought I can help you heal those wounds but I guess even time can't help you heal those kasi ikaw mismo hindi mo maturuan ang sarili mo na pigilan na hindi na sya mahalin ulit. Miks I salute you for being a strong girl, for making us all believe na you are okay kahit walang Kiefer sa buhay mo pero ang totoo sya pa rin ang hinahanap mo. I admire you more now kasi nakita ko kung gaano ka kalalim magmahal and you know what I have only one wish, sana in another life magkakilala tayo ulit, walang Kiefer ako at ikaw lang tapos magmamahalan tayo. Pero dahil wala pa tayo sa next life natin, Im giving you back to him. Im returning you to Kiefer. Funny no ibabalik kita pero hindi ka naman naging akin but I guess I need to return to Kiefer the little love and concern that you gave to me" he said and smiled at me. I saw the pain in his eyes but at the same time the sincerity. Totoong gusto nya na maging masaya ko.