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Ice Cream Analogy

I don't expect people to read this. It's like a diary to me, but I'm sharing it. And if you think about it, it's a way for readers to connect with me, to get to know me better. Still, I don't expect anyone to read it.

I don't expect people to read this as well.

Anyways! On with the rambling!

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When someone backstabs you or lies to you, being angry and hurt is a normal reaction. But apparently! I'm not a normal human being!

I should be angry, I should be breaking things or beating the person up.

Sorry, I tend to get violent when stuff happens to me.

But I don't feel any betrayal! Ok maybe a little, but not as much as I thought I'd be.

And this person is a very close friend of mine, very very close. I'm not even bothered by it.

No, I'm not making a big deal out of it. It is a big deal, and I'm not dramatic.

Most times.

The point is! I'm hardly affected, and I'm sooo confused.

I think I got used to it. People always lied or used me, it's not a shock to me.

It's sad, the fact I got used to it saddens me. I don't wanna get used to it to the point where something even worse happens and I would just shrug it off.

I don't want bad things to happen and expect myself to be nonchalant about them. I can't avoid everything.

And the person keeps lying to me, and I'm here chillin and eating ice cream.

What the actual fuck?

People are dying! And here I am complaining about why isn't there my favorite flavor of ice cream!

I know, it's a really weird analogy. But you get my point, Right?

Off track!

I don't deserve this kind of treatment! Yet here I am, moving on with life.

Is that a good thing? I don't know. My reaction depends on the person, but this person means so much to me; and I let them do this.

I don't want bad blood between us (yes I used a Taylor Swift reference). I actually want to see them bleed . . .

I'm not sure if that's figuratively or literally speaking. Possibly both.

Maybe I just need to accept this feeling and get over whatever this is.

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I sounded so serious! It's boring.

But anyways.

Word of advice: you should rethink about the people around you and the way they treat you. You deserve the best and you shouldn't keep quiet about the assholes that add unwanted drama in your life. Don't let anyone treat you like they have you wrapped around their fingers.

Treat yourself righteously before you treat others in the same manner.