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Never A Patrick, Always a Star

I like to the think that I'm a deep person. Well technically, I AM; with all of the poems I've written and the crazy shit I write in here.

Yes, I'm a deep person.

And it's hard for people like me to survive in this stupid world with its stupid ideals and stupid thoughts.

Stupid.

Things get difficult when I communicate with people, because I get so deep so fast, the person who I'm talking to stares at me like they're Patrick Star after something had been explained to him.

Basically, I'm considered a freak.

I like to think outside the box. I like to think in levels that exceed beyond what's considered to be the comfort zone. Because there's always something new to think about.

So why stop at certain limits?

My mom is awesome. My mom is amazing. She's like the deepest person I've ever met and could ever meet. She always seeks knowledge and new information. She never stops.

I love that about her, because that makes her even more interesting. She's not just my mom, but she's also a really deep human being whom I love to communicate with.

You can never find someone like her so easily. She's rare like that.

I love talking to her about crazy and weird shit, because she gets it. Who was going to understand me other than the person whom I've inherited the deep thinking from?

So we talk about a lot of things. She's the person I go to when I don't get something or when I'm going through something. She understands me in a way.

But.

Yes, there's a but.

There are things that I can't say to my own mother. If I did, it would only hurt her. I can stand seeing my friend hurt, I can stand seeing my sibling hurt, but I can NEVER stand seeing my mom hurt.

Like imagine looking into your mother's eyes and straightforwardly saying "I almost killed myself."

It's basically me telling her "you are a horrible mother."

I just can't.

My point is, I wish I had someone who I CAN talk to about things like this and won't judge me about it. I wish I had someone whom I can have deep conversations with.

People like me out there can relate. It's hard finding that someone.

That's why I'm writing these entries, so all of you guys can know I'm a deep person and I'm here.

If you want someone who you can have deep conversations with, I'm here.

If you want to talk about all of the problems you have and not judge you about it, I'm here.

If you need someone, anyone, I'm here.

I might be alone in this, but you don't have to be.

Quote of the day: "Don't be a Patrick Star. Be a bright star."

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