Ramblings of a Red Haired Girl

June 4

hey everyone!

well i havent posted anything in a while so i decided to write... lots of stuff happening lately. 

so... wow where to begin. so much is changing. well for one, there is no more meebo :( its so annoying trying to talk to people on here now. but ya... other things are changing again. 

im talking to my best friend again. last night we had a really long talk. i think things are going to get better now. at least with my bff... other things... maybe not so good. 

*sigh* well i guess i should say im crushless again... the guy i like... hes to good for me. and... well he will never like me... at least not like that... idk if he'll read this. if his friends will show him this. but id rather he just forget that i even had a crush on him in the first place. i think he already did forget. 

and dom is gone... her account got deleted... i have no way to talk to her now... not even email... shes really gone... and i dont think she'll be coming back.

things just arnt good. people lying all the time, to cover up what i know is real, because they dont think that i can help... 

people treat me like some little girl that doesnt know anything and cant do anything. they treat me like im to young to understand. what they dont understand is that i am 15 years old. in a few years, i will be an adult. im not a little girl, no matter how much i act like one. i do that to make people smile... thats something in not good at, making people smile. so i act all little and cute. 

but when i want to be serious, everyone treats me the same.. but im not the same. 

people tell me i dont understand... but they never try to help me understand either... i hate it when they do that. my mom does that... 

*sigh* today was fun till the past hour or two... everything has gone downhill from there... 

*sigh* im going to bed... goodnight