Ramblings of a Red Haired Girl

Letter # 11

dear Kc

holy shit dude its been like 9 months since i met you.

no.

its been like 9 years

no way it could have been only 9 months.

f*ck it has only been 9 months.

O.O thats a baby... 

well... thats... awkward

i remember when i first met you. you were like no one else i had ever met.

and i was a mess. a big fat ugly mess.

thank you for helping me. i needed it.

before i met you, i thought i could hide everthing that hurt and that no one would care if i was gone. i thought i was ugly.

thank you for making me change my mind. thank you so much for careing about me. for being there for me.

and i owe you everything. my life even, cause i probably wouldnt be here anymore if you hadent been there.

your my best friend, my brother, almost a dad sometimes. :P

thank you for putting up with me. even when i freaked out on you. i... i wouldnt have put up with myself if i were you. i dont know how you did it. but you did

and well... i probably annoy you. i talk to much when you want to be alone. like now. and im sorry. i just want you to be ok, i need to know your stillt there. cause every time you leave, i have this part of me that says this time, he wont come back. 

it scares me to death cause you are one of the best things thats ever happened to me. and i know your going through hell and i would do anything for you if i could, but i dont know what i could do. i would switch places with you if i could. i could deal with all your shit. you could be with the one you want to be with...

but unfortuanly i am me and you are you and we cant switch.

i cant thank you enough for all you've done for me.

i hope someday i can help people like you helped me. but i dont think i ever will. that doesnt stop me from making you my hero. 

i love you, hero.

and you arnt getting away from me, even if you want to... ok ya you could cause if you really wanted me to go away, you could make me. but i wouldnt make it very long after that.

thank you for being my best friend

thank you for being you. wonderful amazing you. and im not the only one that thinks so. you know what im talking about ;)

love you so much snapps

<3

-Leah.