Ramblings of a Red Haired Girl

Letter # 3

*sigh* this is going to be the hardest to write. but here goes nothing

Dear Dom.

its been a while. you probably still hate me for what i said

but let me just explain some things.

1. my other account is for me to let out every little thing i need to not have locked up in me anymore. and ya, i say some bad things there. about you, about me, about everyone. thats just what it is. its was not put there for you to read, it was put there for me to let my feelings out. and what i wrote was not everything i felt.

i did love you. not like a creeper, like a friend. like a sister. and you should know that a certain blonde haired man loves you too. LIKE A DAUGHTER. for f*cks sake why did you have to go and call him that. 

and 2. i do not take kindly to people calling my sister a bitch and my best friend a creep. so ya, i got fucking mad. and all your shit. its just that. shit. its called life. we all have a ton of shit in our life, so grow up sweetheart, its time to go through it. boys, they just make things worse. untill they are about 23 they will just be jerks, and even then some of them will still be. but. THEY. ARE. GOING. TO. HURT. YOU. its just life, thats how life rolls. 

after all, life kills us all.

and im sorry if you think i hate you, im sorry if you think that im a bitch. great thats just fine, join the club. 

i dont care.

you were really important to me at one time. but it was your choice to call the only two people that were more important to me than you, really mean names. it was your choice to make my best friend cry. for fucking weeks he cried. so great job. thank you for adding to the already high stack of drama.

and one more thing. believe it or not, i dont hate you. i could never hate you dom, you were so important to me... so much more than you think. but i dont forgive you. not now. not after you called my best friend and sister those things and then me even worse things.

remember my birthday party? 

i knew it was a bad idea

if it wasnt for me, none of this would have happened.

im sorry.

and im sorry you are having a tuff time with life.

im sorry you have to face the real world now. but its time. and you have to. people will turn on you, people will break you. its life. it keeps happeneing, even when you grow up. 

and it cant be stoped. what will happen will happen.

so please, dont hate me. you dont have to like me, or forgive me, just please dont hate me.

i wont bother you again after this. this is probably the last time you will hear from me.

its been nice knowing you

and well... have a nice life. you will find someone worthy of your love someday and make sure he is not like this one boy.

and for goodness sake, remember youve got decades in front of you, not everything will happen right now

and dom? i love you. even if i dont like you much, i still love you. cause i was to close not to.

goodbye my little ninja friend

-Leah.