Ramblings of a Red Haired Girl

November 10

This is coming to an end. The next entry will be the last of this.... The last thing I will post from this account (although I may post something random on here, but I don't think so)

It's... It's been a long year.

So much has happened... So much has changed.

A year ago, I was this annoying fat ugly girl that didnt know what to do with herself. I thought I would never be liked. That no one would ever love me. And I will admit, the idea of being in the top 3 most important people to someone is still a little strange to me. I'm not used to having friends.

I used to have 2 friends.

Wattpad has changed my life so much.

Over the past 12 months, I've made friends, gotten to be a better writer, read like hundreds of books, helped people with their life, messed things up for people, saved people from doing stupid bad things, fixed friendships as relationships, broken a few hearts. It's... It's been a good time. The best and the worst.

I learned that I'm beautiful, no matter what the people say, and if I stare long enough, I no longer see a huge nose and ugly eyes and a wiry smile. I see me. And I'm not that bad.

I've changed how I am. If I wanna say something, I will. People that know me are surprised when I say something that's rebellious or a bad attitude to a teacher. But idc. It's just me. Just cause I hid that part of me for so long. But it's back. And I'm me again. No more fake smiling. If I want to be mad, I will be.

And maybe I'm not very popular. But I don't care. I have a few friends at school, even if half of them are going back to their own countries next year... I hope I will never lose track of them.

I've met my online friends. They mean everything to me. I don't know what I would do without them. But I can tell you for sure, I would not be alive today without them. I would be in a box under the ground and the school would have another suicide to deal with.

Cause ya. Sometimes it was that bad.

But I had people. And they saved me. I don't ever want to have to go without them.

Things have been pretty tough over the summer. Loves lost, loves found, people hurt, hearts broken. It's been... hard. But I wouldn't change that much. It made us stronger. And that is what really matters. We made it through.

And chickens? Life is hard. And it's gunna get worse. Especially when your a teenager. But guess what? Teen years arn't everything. We grow up. We get jobs. We get family's. or we don't. But either way, it's not over yet. So just cause it seems like everything is going wrong and nothing will ever be ok again, it will be ok. Because we still have a long time.

And girls? Ya, a guy is going to break your heart. Maybe a lot. But that's part of life. Don't expect to find the one you will marry while your a teen. Cause frankly, teenage guys (till about age 23) are huge a$$holes. And don't think that just cause you can't find someone to be with now, means you will never find a guy. You know what? Maybe a hundred or so guys? But how many are in the world? Trust me, there is someone out there for you. Just don't give up on them. You won't be alone forever.

And guys? Girls are going to be overdramatic. *Girly high pitched voice* Like duh it's like our job description! Teen girls = more drama than needed ever!

Lol

And ya know, sometimes the love stories from books and movies... Sometimes they are true. It's not totally bogus. People fall in love with their best friend. And there is drama between the nerd and the queen bee. It all really happen, all the drama. All the love, it can all really happen. It wouldn't be believable if it never happened. And some people have boring love stories. Some people have exciting... I know one that's pretty freekin awesome... But I can't tell it :( I will someday. And I can't wait. No, it's not about me. But it's about some people close to me. And it is most defiantly amazing. And true. It's amazing and true.

So wait. Your prince will come and your princess is waiting. :P

Have fun chickens.

Don't let life drag you down

Come visit me sometime?

-Leah

*ps. I changed my username on my other account to DayDreamer58. Thinking about changing my name on this one too. Not to drastically though so don't worry.

I love you <3