Ramblings of a Red Haired Girl

June 7

hello everyone

so... a lot has been happening... so many secrets that i now hold in my brain alone. i cant tell anyone because people could get in trouble. 

i talked to one of my friends to day... idk what to do.

so i have this friend... lets just call her Bell... anyway, she is trying to avoid my other friend... lets call him Jake. and so Bell is avoiding Jake and she figures out a way to get away from him completely. but she still talks to me. and Jake misses her and stuff and wants to talk to her but Bell wont do it for reasons she wont tell me about. and Bell asks me how Jake is and wants to know everything but she wont talk to him... 

does this even make sense? cause well... if your one of my friends and you think its about you, im not just singling you out. actually this is happening with two of my friends... well two sets of friends... there are two different girls avoiding two different guys and both the girls expect me to tell them how both the guys are... soo confusing. 

but ya... idk what to do. i really want to tell them to get over whatever the he** it is and talk to the boys. but they wont.

so thats that

another thing... they guy i like... idk what to say cause he knows i like him and he sometimes gets to read these... so i wont say it... but there is stuff with him.

at school the other day, i saw a guy abusing his girlfriend... i was in the wrong place at the wrong time... i was at lunch and was just coming out of the bathroom when she was trying to go in. she was crying. he was right behind her and he grabbed her arm and asked her where she was going... i only saw her face for a second but i could see she was afraid. and i saw his face too... thats why i got out of there so fast... i walked around the corner and heard him yelling at her... then i heard a thump... i think he pushed her against the door and then he left... i went to see if she was ok... she came out and said she was fine... then he came back and started yelling again... i was scared to death cause ive heard that he can be pretty violent so i walked around the corner as fast as i could. he told her to come with him and headed off to the gym and she started the other way to the lunch room... when he realized she wasnt following him, he ran back to her and grabbed her arm... hard... and he started yelling again... by then my english teacher had noticed and he went up and got the guy to leave the girl alone... i was so scared for the girl... and for me too... i was scared that that guy was gunna come after me too... 

oh and speaking of my English teacher... hes moving. hes leaving to go to a town 2 hours away... im gunna miss him cause he was cool. 

there are so many other little things... like the happily ever after story that i am having trouble writing... and so much... just little things that are happening... all these little things... 

well anyway, imma go work on Happily Ever After. talk to you chickens later!