Ramblings of a Red Haired Girl

July 12

HEEELLLLOOOOO PEOPLE OF THE WORLD!!!!

Hey it's me. The author of this journal diary rant type thingie.

It is currently 5:26 am and I can not sleep. Been up since 3. Just a normal day.

I'm just gunna say random shiz that you probably don't care about now so... Ya.

Why do people read this anyway? I mean... I didnt really expect you guys to read it... It was just a way for me to release some stuff and when I think of something cute to put it in here... Mainly for my friends to read... The weirdest part is that only a few of my friends actually read this shiz and it's mostly complete strangers.... O.o

Well anyway.... Hmmmmmm

The sunrise was pretty this morning. I got up around 5 cause I was hungry and so I went out to the kitchen and got some food (and didnt wake up my parents!! Which is actually kinda awesome since my house is... well....small. It's a double wide... If you know what that is. Anyway... My house has 7 rooms and 2 closets. And the 7 rooms include bedrooms, kitchen, living room, bathrooms. There's my room, the guest room, my bathroom (well... It's mine cause my parents have the master bathroom and I'm an only child so it's my bathroom), the living room, kitchen/dining room, my parents room, and their bathroom. Oh well I guess there is the little room by the back door where the washer and dryer are... But whatever. The point is I have a very small house.

Where was I? Ahh yes. Went to the kitchen to get food which is cool cause I didn't wake up my parents and the kitchen is really close to their room. And then I was walking back to my room and saw the sunrise through our door (which is pretty much left open all night durning the summer so we don't have to use the AC as much.... We live in the middle of nowhere so we don't have to be worried about being robbed or something) and then since my mind is sleep deprived I'm just like wooh I should take pictures. So I did. It was pretty.

That was basically a lot of words about nothing.

Well... Hmmm... I guess now that you know what kind of house I live in and that we leave the door open all night to cut down on air conditioning costs, I should tell you... Well... Ok lemmi say this differently.

Most people on Wattpad are pretty well off. They go on vacations every year and have their own computers for every person in the family and their awesome two story houses and get new cars when they turn 16.

Ya... Me? Not so much.... A vacation for me is my mom saying that she has a day off and that we are going to the mall. Which means 4 hr drive to the nearest mall. 4 hours shopping for stuff we don't need and can't afford. 1 hour at my sweet Barnes and Nobel (I LOVE Barnes and Nobel) then an hour eating and a few hours at Costco. Then 4 hours home again. We usually get home around 1am. That's a vacation for me.

I use my moms laptop to go in gmail and Wattpad. It's an old laptop and we cant un plug it cause the battery is shot. But it's what we got.

I live is a shitty little house.

My car, that I'm getting soon, is my grandmas old blazer. She's old enough that she can't drive (psh, she can't even walk at the moment) and so dad got it and decided that I could use it. So ya. That's my car.

My family doesn't have money like most people do...

Look I know that I complain about my mom a lot and that's because when she's home, she can be kinda mean.... I'm not afraid to say that my biggest bully is my mother. Just don't tell her. I don't want her to know that. But anyway, she is the one that makes most of the money.

My dad is a rancher. He rases hay in the summer ad feeds cows in the winter. He works his a$$ off every day fixing tractors and cutting hay and changing water. And he gets paid almost nothing. Like really, he is not paid enough for all that he does. Plus he's old. My dad is 6... 65? 66? I can't remember. Somewhere in there. Old enough that he could be my grandpa. But whatever. He's a little bit old to be doing all the stuff he does.

My mom works for the post office. She drives 100 miles every morning to this post office that needs a post master because the one that's suppose to be there is working in another one and... Ya it's confusing. She brings in most of our money. So... Ya... And she doesn't get paid much. So ya... We don't have much money.

We don't have tv. (Well... We have a tv. DVD and VHS tapes. And my wii that my grandparents got me)

I don't have my own computer.

The only reason I have my iPod touch is because I used my own money to buy it.

We didnt have wifi till October last year. We used dial up.

We listen to the radio a lot. Buy cd's instead of constantly using YouTube and pandora and stuff cause that raises the Internet bill.

That kinda thing.

So ya. I don't have it as good as most of the people on this site. I was taught that if you had a problem, you fix it. Or learn to live with it. Which is why I kinda have no sympathy for some people on here. *Sarcastic voice* Oh my god, you didn't get to go to the mall this week, it's a crime against life. -.-

I know that I don't have it as good as those people. But I know people who have it worse. People who wear te same dirty clothes day after day because they don't have the money to get new or to get theirs cleaned. Those who are mostly taking care of themselves by te time they hit school because their parents are on to many drugs to care.

I know people who would think that my life would be heaven. And then I go on here and people are complaining about things that really don't matter. I hate that. I hate that there are so many good, kind people out there who don't have things going good for them and only dream of the things that we take for granted. And then there are rich bitches who don't deserve what they have. It's not right.

*sigh* well... It's 6. I should probably go get some more sleep... Maybe I'll be able to sleep now that I've got some of this out.

Thanks for reading guys.

Thanks so much

I LOVE YOU CHICKENS!!!

<3-Leah.