I've walked into the Shield therapist room. The team including my dad wanted me to go since I came back from Sokovia, but I refuse because I thought I was okay. Here's the story, every night when I go to sleep I keep seeing Pietro dying, the Sokovia city destroyed, and the people screaming. I wake up screaming. That's every night. Every night my dad comes running into my room, every night I see Pietro dying. Recently, I moved to the facility to keep Wanda company. I actually like living there, but I really want to be back at the tower.
"Ms. Stark, the therapist wants to see you now." Said the sectary. I snapped out of my daydream.
"Thanks." I walked to the office and opened the door. He was about his early 20's late 30's man.
"Crystalline, Hi I'm Dr. Andrew Garner, your therapist." He smiled and I returned a shy one. "Please take a seat." I sat down and just waited for him.
"Crystal is just fine." I hate the name Crystalline, it's just not suited for me. It's just not me. Never mind.
"Okay, so tell me about what types of dreams you are experiencing." I took a deep breath.
"In the battle of Sokovia. "
"What happened in Sokovia?"
"I liked someone and he died. He died saving one of our fellow avenger and a child. As your heard, the city was destroyed."
"Did this man have the same feelings towards you?"
"We kissed and he gave me a ring." I looked out the window. I started to play with the blue and silver ring necklace. "He actually made me feel it I was someone."
"It says here that you have sonic scream as a second power, is that correct?" I nodded. "When you wake up, when you scream, what do you feel?"
"I feel like my whole life was all a dream. It scares me because I know one day that it's going to be dangerous to scream, and maybe I'll won't wake up."
"You have dreams about someone who is close to death, correct?" I nodded again. "In those dreams, what do you feel?"
"It feels real. Like I'm actually holding her body, the blood on my hands, but when I scream, I wake up screaming." He started to write down things on his journal.
"You said her. Who was she?" My eyes shot up and looked at him. Did I say her?
"My best friend Elena." I licked my lips so I wouldn't sob. "She died when Hydra attack Shield. When Alexander Pierce-"
"It's okay, you don't have to keep going." He got up from his desk and walked around the office. "I need you to come in twice a week. You tell me the dreams you've been seeing and we talk them over." I stood up and headed to the door and crossed my arms.
"Twice a week, got it."
"And Crystal," I turned around at looked at him. "If I were you, don't feel guilty about the deaths." How did he know that I feel guilty?
"How did you know?"
"By the way you came in. Your face was telling me that you feel sad, guilty, emotional, angry about the tragic deaths of your loved ones." I started to walk to him.
"I want it to stop. I don't want to see the same thing over and over." I cried. I couldn't take it anymore. I was done. I sat down on the chair.
"Was the man the first man you ever loved?" He questioned.
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"I don't know. I didn't know what type of feelings I had for him." When I hear Pietro's name, I have some hope that he's here and one day that he'll pop up and say, 'You didn't see that coming'. "I think I liked him." I said.
"Was Elena the girl you saw die first?"
"Yes." Garner was sorry for me. He really wanted to help me, but I felt like I was pushing him away.
"I'm going to help you through this, okay. I'm going to lead you every step of the way." He dropped his pen as he was done writing about this conversation. "I promise."
"Just tell you what I dreamed about, twice a week." He nodded. It won't be that bad. I walked to the door and he said something one more time. "See you later this week."
"See you." I walked out and closed the door. I walked the halls of the facility and to my car. "He's going to help you. He's going to you every step of the way." I said to myself. I drove back to the tower and went to my room. I dropped my bag on the floor and headed to the bathroom and run the shower. I took off my clothes and sat on the tub.
"Is everything alright Ms.Stark?" FRIDAY asked.
"Everything is going well." I cried in the shower. All my emotions just spilled out of me. I sobbed and sobbed. "Why did you go, Pietro?" I whispered to myself. After 5 more minutes I jumped out and went to the kitchen and ate some crackers and cream cheese and went to my room. I heard a knock on my door and I saw my dad.
"Hey, honey. How you feel?" He sat on my bed.
"I miss him. I miss Elena." I cried again. "I need to stop crying! They are gone and they are not coming back!" I yelled. My dad holds me. "Gone."
"I know. I know how you feel." He said as he kissed my head. "You'll meet someone else who would love you more. Someday you'll meet someone new and fall madly in love with." It took a while to process the words. I will meet someone and he'll be my first love. "You'll fall in love more than once." Then FRIDAY came in.
"Mr Stark, the coco is ready, want me to keep it warm?" My dad looked at me and I nodded.
"With wiped cream?" I asked my dad.
"Of course."
"Why not." I said.
"You'll be okay." He said and he put his arm around my shoulders. "We're going to get through this together." The two of us sat in the living room and watched some home videos of me when I saw young.
"Awe! Look at Crystal!" I faked a laugh as I saw little me crave a pumpkin and the 'guts' went all over my face.
"Say happy birthday to daddy!" Pepper said through the tv. It was when he left for a convention in Chicago. "I miss you, daddy!" I said as I blow out the candles of my cake. "Tell your dad how old you are!" Looked at the camera. "I'm 7!" Then another video came up. "Happy be quite, Crystal is going to do her piano recital!" I saw my 10-year-old self walk up to the piano. The song of Hey Jude. "Tony wish you were here!" I cried at the memories I had. "Elena and Crystal the two peas in a pod. What are you up today?" And 12-year-old Elena spoke. "Me and Crystal are going to our ballet class!" I looked at my dad's face were in tears and he was smiling.
