Faults, Scars, and Guitar Strings

Chapter 45

Chapter 45

When I finally composed myself I went to the music room. Writing a song about this is the only thing that is going to stop me from breaking down and relapsing. I played guitar and wrote everything down until I had a song. I was recording it an hour later.

I want be your first priority,
but I can't ask you to choose me over them.
I love you more than words compare,
If I have to let you go then I will.

You're my life,
but I can't see you hurt.
Go to them, go to them,
I'll be okay for now.

Go to them, go to them,
that's what's best for you.
Leave me, leave me,
I can't put you through all this.

My life has been blessed with the presence of you.
Walking down the hall,
And holding my hand with you.
Just know I'll always care.

I'm not good for you,
don't ruin your life for me.
The pain will go away,
You'll find someone better.

You're my life,
but I can't see you hurt.
Go to them, go to them,
I'll be okay for now.

Go to them, go to them,
that's what's best for you.
Leave me, leave me,
I can't put you through all this.

I can't hurt you anymore.
I can't handle this pain.
I wanna be your first priority,
but you have to choose them over me.

I stopped recording and saw Lolita in the doorway. "Don't say anything," I told her.

She walked in further, "Just tell me what happened."

"They asked him to choose."

"And you put yourself out of the picture," she finished.

I nodded, "I didn't know what else to do."

"Kayla, you know he loves you. He would do anything for you."

"But he was putting himself in a million different directions. He didn't know who he was, what he wanted, or who his true friends were."

"Everybody goes through that time in their life. You didn't do that to him. I went through a period like that too. I had a lot of problems and I was surrounded by people who didn't care. It took a long time to realize who the friends were that did care. Dylan is going through that time now, but that's not your fault."

"His friends are terrible people; why would he even debate whether to stay with them over me?"

Lolita shrugged, "I really don't know. I can tell you one thing."

"What?"

"I have never seen anybody love someone as much as Dylan loves you. Maybe he's scared of letting go. I remember you being scared of letting Alicia and your dad go."

I sighed, "What do I do?"

"You wait for Dylan to make the right decision and come back to you... and he will."

*Dylan*

"You!" I snarled as I stormed into Zack's house and slammed him into the wall.

"Dude, what the hell?!" Damien yelled and pulled me off Zack.

"This is your fault!" I yelled. "Ever since you two came back all you've cared about is bringing Kayla down. What did she ever do to you?! Is it really all worth it?!"

"Lover's quarrel?"

"Shut up!" I yelled. "You two are just bullies. Was I ever your friend or just a pawn for you to get to Kayla?"