IRRESISTIBLE! (N.H.)

CHAPTER 17. U KNEW!!?

WELL WHATEVER IS HAPPENING. I AM HAPPY... BLAH!!

Sanya's P.O.V.

Why was this happening?? I mean tomorrow bella will celebrate her birthday and  I am unfortunate for her. I mean I feel so bad right now. I have spolied their fun, I think they don't like me anymore. Yes, who will like a stranger that too who brings in the troubles.
The cool wind hit my face hard. The night seems quite but who knows that maybe I will again disturb all of them by my problems. I can hear birds whispering cute things to each other whilst hugging , the trees are full of leaves which are busy talking to their friends like all of them had been super busy all the day not getting seconds to share their talks. The scene was quite calm and soon I realized that I was only wearing a tshirt with denims. I just hugged myself in an attempt to break the effect of the weather in the balcony.

I cannot trouble them anymore, I am like kinda going. I cannot be the trouble bringer. I am fed up of myself, I think I should just kill myself- my thoughts are disturbed by someone's coughing. And he is harry.

"Umm sanya please don't feel bad,I mean I know what all you are going through right now, but still please don't worry. I know that u are feeling terrible right now but.. "I interrupt him.
"Harry can u just help me grabbing my things. I am leaving "I break down.

Why ? Although i didn't wanted to, atleast not in front of him ,what will he think?

He will probably think that I am weak and I need help or maybe he just wants to throw me out. But all of these things are crossed and thrown out of my brain when harry hugs me.

I join in and he starts to calm me down. I sob a bit louder than before and i dont know why but i feel so safe in his arms.

My tears, he rubs them with his soft fingertips. And I just bury my face in his chest, and he draws circles on my back.

" I am sorry harry. But please don't hate me. I know that I have brought you all so many problems but I don't know how to cope up. Let me go please, I will just go somewhere or I think I should go to Marcus and let him decide whatever he wants to do with me. He can kill me, beat me or he can just use all of me and then just throw away when he is done. I don't know why the hell I am saying this , I have just lost everything I had, I am just like a lost puppy and I find myself safe with you but I cannot stay here just to drag you in every possible problem with me" I finished regretting saying  the last line out loud .

Harry reached for my chin and stared deep in my eyes.

"Sanya I don't know what is happening with me but I feel for you girl, please don't do this. I mean just don't blame yourself for the things you have not done"he caresses my cheek and I  again bury my face in his chest and cry.

"Sanya. Sanya look up. Look up"he demands in a calm voice and I do as he says. He rubs my tears and takes a strand off my face. I shiver because of the weather and the clothes which I am wearing. He notices the shivers I am undergoing and removes his jacket and places it over my shoulders. All this time I just stare at his face and he being totally unaware that I am staring him continues to make me feel warm. One of his curls despite of his bandana drops on his face and I quite uncontrollably remove it. He stops whatever he was doing and stares into my brownies.

After a while i break the ice and thank him.

"Where is bella?"i ask.
"Umm you don't know sanya that you have been here for half an hour and all of us wanted to see you but bella told us that in these type of situations u always need some private space. So bella went into her room and niall, i mean we forcily sent him. He even asked us that were we secretly eating something but somehow we managed to send him upstairs. And about the arrangement of her party, louis and zayn and liam are doing the work and while i was coming here liam gave me this. He has forbidden me to read this and hereby I handover it to you" he passes on a note to me which is quite cutely wrapped in an envelop.