OH GOD, OH GOD, OH GOD SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL. SHE'S SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL IT'S RIPPING MY HEART APART BECAUSE SHE WILL NEVER EVER LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE HER. I WOULD STOP FUCKING BREATHING FOR HER, I WOULD GIVE EVERYTHING I HAVE TO HER JUST TO SEE HER SMILE.
AND NO, SHE'S NOT PERFECT BUT THAT'S WHAT MAKES HER EVEN MORE BEAUTIFUL. I AM IN LOVE WITH EVERYTHING FUCKING THING ABOUT HER BUT SHE IS IN LOVE WITH NOTHING ABOUT ME. AND IT HURTS JESUS FUCKING CHRIST DOES IT HURT BECAUSE SHE HAS DONE THIS TO ME FOR SO LONG AND YOU'D THINK THAT BY NOW I'D BE USED TO IT, BUT I'M NOT. I'M NOT.
AND ITS SO FUCKING STUPID THAT I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE AS FUCKED UP AS SHE IS BUT THAT DIDN'T EVEN CROSS MY MIND TILL NOW. IT DIDN'T CROSS MY MIND WHEN SHE GAVE LOVE FILLED STARES TO A GIRL THAT IS MUCH BETTER THAN ME, IT DIDN'T CROSS MY MIND WHEN SHE TOLD ME THAT I WAS JUST 'SOMEONE SHE KNEW'.
NO, IT CROSSED MY MIND NOW, IN THE DARK AT 1 FUCKING AM BECAUSE SHE IS THE ONLY THING ON MY MIND AND I'M THE LAST THING ON HERS.
[i was reading through my other version of this book, and i found this. i guess that this still goes through my mind today? haha, this wasn't too long ago actually. anyways, the song is called 'In The Embers - Sleeping at Last']
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emotionally
No Ficciónbasically a book where i write down how i'm feeling, throw in some really shitty poetry here and there and maybe a few songs for the hell of it. [ trigger warning ]
