i'm going back to spending nights awake staring at my ceiling till the sun comes up because i can't be bothered to shut my eyes because whenever i do i can see her smile and i can hear her laughter. and there's always some voices in my head and they say shit to me and it's my fucking fault its all my fault. she wasn't sad, she was fine she was fucking fine and then she met me and she became SO FYCKING SAD.
SHE BECAME SO F U C K I N G SAD AND ITS ALL MY FAULT ITS ALL MY FUCKING FAULT I LOVED HER SO MUCH, SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING SHE WAS MY ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD AND SHE LEFT ME. SHE LEFT ME BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T LIKE THE WORLD, SHE DIDN'T LIKE HERSELF. AND I'M SO LOST. SHE WAS MY FUCKING MAP AND SHE LEFT ME AND I NOW I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO.
I HAVEN'T FELT ANYTHING IN THREE FUCKING YEARS AND THAT'S BECAUSE SHE TOOK IT ALL AWAY FROM ME AND NOW I CAN'T GET ANY OF IT BACK.
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غير روائيbasically a book where i write down how i'm feeling, throw in some really shitty poetry here and there and maybe a few songs for the hell of it. [ trigger warning ]
