Let's play a love game :)

Love YourSelf

Bumulong ako sa kanya..,
"Pwede bang ikaw naman ang masolo ko", bulong ko sa kanya...

Humiwalay ako sa kanya at hiniram ko yung gitara nung lalake ..Hinila ko siya papunta sa tabi ng beach kung saan malayo ..Sinabi ko sa kanya na umupo siya...Kinuha ko yung gitara at tumingin ako sa kanya...

All the times that you rain on my parade
And all the clubs you get in using my name
You think you broke my heart
Ohhh girl for goodness sake
You think I'm crying
Oh my ohhh, well I ain't!

And I didn't wanna write a song
'Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care, I don't
But, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be moving on

And I think you should be somethin' I don't wanna hold back
Maybe you should know that
My mama don't like you and she like's everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job
Didn't see what's going on
But now I know
I'm better sleeping on my own

'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Ohhhh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

Ngumiti ako sa kanya...Huminto muna ko sa pag gigitara...
"Alam mo Blue, hindi ko alam kung bakit nagawa ka niyang iwan,bakit nagawa ka niyang ipagpalit,bakit nagawa ka niyang palita..Kung sabi mo nga baka nasakal siya, baka nagsawa sayo, baka napagod dahil lagi kang andyan ..Hindi pa din sapat yun..Ako nga pinangarap ko yun,pinagarap ko na dadating yung time na Ako nalang sa buhay ni Drew...na dadating yung time na masasabi niya sa lahat ng tao na may kami..tulad ng ibang couples my monthsary, may anniversary at higit sa lahat my karapatan ka sa kaniya..May karapatan magselos, may karapatan sa oras at buhay niya...Ang gara noh..Kung siguro tayo ang nagkakilala baka masabi ko until now we're together...Nagmahal lang kasi tayo..Yun nga lang hindi mangyayari yun..Pagod na kong masaktan..Pagod na kong umiyak..Pagod na tong puso ko,.Kaya ikaw wag kang gumaya sakin..Love yourself first ...para pagnagmahal ka ulit.,buong buo.,Maibibigay mo lahat .,You need closure ..kailangan wag kang matakot na harapin siya..Wag kang matakot na sabihin lahat lahat atw ag kang matakot na magmoveon...,Naisip ko kasi kagabi to, handa ko na siyang kausapin si Drew..Pagbalik natin sa manila..Maguusap kami..Para tapos na..Para wala ng masaktan..Pero hindi ibig sabihin non pinapayagan ko na siya na bumalik sa buhay ko..Suko na ko..Suko na yung puso ko magalit..Suko na yung puso ko masaktan...Ayoko na..Its time na para mahalin natin yung sarili natin bago ang iba....

Kinuha ko ulit yung gitara at kumanta..

When you told me that you hated my friends
The only problem was with you and not them
And every time you told me my opinion was wrong
And tried to make me forget where I came from

And I didn't wanna write a song
Cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care, I don't
But, you still hit my phone up
And baby I be moving on
And I think you should be somethin' I don't wanna hold back
Maybe you should know that
My mama don't like you and she like's everyone
And I never like to admit that I was wrong
And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going on
And now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own

'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Oh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

For all the times that you made me feel small
I fell in love now I fear nothin' at all
I never felt so low when I was vulnerable
Was I a fool to let you break down my walls?

'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Ohhhh baby you should go and love yourself
And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin'
You should go and love yourself

Pagkatapos humiga ako sa buhangin...
Huminga ng malalim at pumikit...

Lord please ease my pain and help me to forgive....

Pagmulat ng mga mata ko...nakahiga at nakaharap na din sakin si Blue...

"Alam mo Ayanna..paano pala kung tayong dalawa??
Paano kung bigyan natin ng chance yung isat-isa??..
Baka satin my happy ending.."

Natulala ako ng ilang minuto...

"We have a contract...Dont fall in love!",.pagpapaalala ko sa kanya...
"Minsan kailangan i break ang rules para maging masaya..we need to take a risk to be happy.."..siryosong sabi niya...
"Let see", sabi ko sa kanya...
"Its means na..."..

Hindi pa siya natatapos ay bumagon ako at humarap sa kanya...
"Kalimutan na natin ang lahat, our past and even our pain, lets start over...Im Queen Ayannah"...sabi ko sa kanya sabay ngiti at abot ang kamay...
"Blue, at your service"..
"Friends "...
"Friends for now..", ngiting sabi niya....Hinila ko siya sa dagat at binasa..Hanggang maenjoy namin ang gabi...Na magkasama kami..Na walang ibang inaalala kung hindi ang sarili namin..Naghabulan kami...Naglaro na parang mga bata...Bubuhatun niya ko taz iatatapon sa dagat..Ako naman sasampa sa kanya taz iikot kami...Walang pain..walang past na inaalala...

Hanggang sa mapagod kami at humiga ulit kami sa beach..,
"This is the best vacation i ever had Blue..Thanks"...
"It became the best because we're together"... Sabi niya sakin at agad niya kong hinalikan sa labi...

"Maniac ka talaga..." Tapos hinabol ko siya hanggang sa maabutan ko siya..At tumawa kami ng tumawa....we talk to each other as if there's no tomorrow..We dont care what time is it..we just enjoy each other company....