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Chapter 19

"Billie! I'm going to meet up with you later, I need to talk to your son." I never thought those words would leave my mouth, me wanting to talk to Joey is something I haven't done in a long time.

"Than talk to him babe, you know I'll support you no matter what. I trust you, I know you'll always make the right decisions. Just don't leave me on this tour alone, I need you." Billie is the most understanding person ever, I just spend week telling him how much I hate his son but now in telling him I want to give Joey a second chance with our friendship, he's completely fine with my change of opinion.

"Thank you Beej, it means a lot. I promise I'll be back by in time for the concert tonight, I'll never miss a show for the would." I never used to go to the concerts when Billie and I weren't close.

At this point I was only working with Emily's Army and Green Day if the other stylist was sick but only for small appearances but us soon as their old stylist went on maternity leave they hired me because of how desperate they were. I proved to them that I actually have some skills so they never went back to her. Now Emily's Army barely talks to me and I'm constantly with Green Day, the tables have turned. I just never thought I'd loose my friendship with Joey, I thought he knew what he was getting himself into when we first meet, he meet me at a concert when I was sleeping with one of his friends due to a crazy one night stand. Let me repeat that, Joey dropped our friendship for me being a slut but our friendship was built because I had a one night stand with one of his friends which lead to the friend and I having a lot of casual sex.

"Ryan, I would never stop you from doing something you believe is what you need to do. I will miss you for a few hours but I'll get over it knowing your happy. Now I'll be off, there's money on the bench for a taxi. I'll see you at the venue." I wish I could of stuck to the plan and gone with Billie now but hope I'm to stupid.

I grab Billies hand and pull him back into the bedroom closing the door, the boys are home and I don't want them to see. I lean up and kiss Billie, it's slow and passionate. The kind of kiss we have when we aren't going to rip each others clothes off, it's this kiss that means the most to me. I honestly know Billie and my relationship isn't one you'd come across often, but I feel like it's one that will last.

"Ok now go or you'll be late. see you later Babe, I'll miss you." I stand with my arms crossed, a smile on my face as Billie collects his things. I am definitely falling hard for him.

"Bye, I'll see you in a few hours." He quickly peaks my lips as he leaves the room, he is so cute and sexy. I really wish he didn't have to leave but I know he has a passion and he wouldn't leave it for the world, I would never ever let him stop playing music.

I crash on Billies bed debating what to say to Joey, this is absolutely torturous. I just have to suck it up and go with my gut, I have a feeling this is going to blow up in my face and make the situation worse. That's it, I'm just going to have to suck it up and walk to the pool house and face him. That exactly what I'm going to do, right now.

Every step my heart pounded, every step my mind debated whether this was a good idea and honestly I don't think I'll know until I've stepped foot into my old room that I shared with Joey. I can't gather the fact I'm coming back, it's been months since I left that place and now look at me.

My fist pounds at the door, all the blinds have been drown shut. Maybe he's not even here, I start to walk away when the door opens and I freeze. I can't do this, I'm not strong enough to face him. I've come this far just to chicken out.

"Jesus Jakob, can you leave me alone for two seco- Ryan?" I slowly turn when he realises it wasn't his brother pestering him like usual, I give him a small smile and let myself into to our room- his room. "You're meant to be with dad."

"I know but I stayed behind, I wanted to see you." I sit on the bed and Joey crosses his legs next to me, this is going better than expected already. I guess I was just over reacting. "I want to tell you that I've changed, I realised what I lost when it came to our friendship. We were good until we lost our ways, I miss the old us and frankly you are my only friend. I'm sorry about what I did but you could have still accepted me for who I was."

"Your right to a degree but you were still out of control, you slept with my best friend Ryan and hid it from me. I can't believe that." Joey looks at me with pain in his eyes, why is he so upset about that? Most people want their two best friends to be happy, this is so confusing.

"Why do you get so worked up over this?" I place my hand on Joey's shoulder and scan his face, his body relaxes as his face drops into his hands. I can feel the frustration leaking from his pores.

"Can't you see it, you mean more to me than you think. I know Max will hurt you and you have no idea how much seeing you to together hurts me. I'm sorry Ryan but you really need to open your eyes, the truth is right here and don't tell me you can't see it because I know you do. Stop denying the truth Ryan, you've known from the beginning but you don't want to admit it."