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Chapter 47

I've decided to see someone about my episodes, this morning I met with a lady for the first time and spent hours talking to her and trying to find the core of the problem. It's going to take time but I feel so much better just admitting there  is something wrong and that it's ok to talk about it and not just run away. It's ok to tell people how you feel.

Right now I'm waiting for Joey, to pick me up. He insisted to wait in the waiting room but I knew that was ridiculous because it was going to be a long session. He finally gave in and left to hang in town and to pick some stuff up. Hopefully he got food, I'm starving.

His car pulls to the curb and he smiles, I jump in and he give him a hug. "How was it?" He looks me up and down with a concerned frown on his face.

"It was good, I've got to go back next week." I smile and sink into the car set getting comfortable. I expect Joey to pull out from the park and head home but he doesn't. He leans behind to and rests a brown paper bag on my lap. Food!

"One I thought you'd be hungry so I got you a pasta salad and two I'm so proud of you so I also got this." He hands me another bag, I place my food by feet and just stare at the white bag with a perfect pink ribbon keeping it closed.

I pull the ribbon and the bag opens to a box, I take a deep breath and pull out the box and just look at it. It's jewellery but I have no idea what it should be. Breathing out I open it and I'm in shock to point where tear fall from my eye. It's a bracelet that has miss me written perfectly on the heart pendant.

Ever since my little sister was starting to talk and I went to visit her I'd just say 'miss me' over time she would say it back and it become our thing. When I left I got matching bracelets but mine got lost on a day out at a waterpark with Joey. Now he's hade it remade, every detail is perfect. You'd think it's the same one.

"Joey." I sob just looking at it, he takes it from me and help me put it on. He wipes away my tears and hugs me tighter than ever. "How did you get it that perfect?"

"I called your mum, she had a lot to say but finally gave in and sent me picture of your sisters. She still wears it ever day Ry." As I take in what Joey says my heart shutters, last time I saw my sister she was three and I'm surprised she still remembers me.

It takes everything in me not to fly to Australia every year and see her but I made a decision and if I go back I'll feel even more guilty knowing I'll just have leave her again. I've spoken to my dad a few time since being here but my mum never forgave me fore leaving even though she was the reason I left. I look at the bracelet and I can still hear her say it, her little voice so sweet.

"Did you talk to her?" A sudden lump grows in my throat and I just want to pick up the phone. I want her here but it going to hurt more knowing how much I missed, the first day of school, the advice about the mean girls, first time riding a bike. There's so much.

He slowly nods his head, my heart races wanting to know what she said. I feel scared but excited, it's been too long. "She said she sees our pictures, that see know about everything. Apparently your other sister talk to her about you."

"Joey, should I call?" I tear rolls down my face and he passes me his phone. I take a deep breath and press the familiar number. It rings and part of me just guesses it'll ring out but then I here background voice and a someone breathing.

"Hi, mums outside." A soft cheery voice says. There silence a Joey signals for me to say something but i just don't know what to say. I close my eyes and quickly gather my thoughts and calm down.

"Miss me." I say softly not knowing if she'll even remember, I run my finger over the charm and just wait. I can't believe I'm actually doing this. It's completely unreal.

"Hi RyRy." She's says, I smile and look a Joey full of joy and happiness. Joey hold my hand as we sit. "I miss you Ry, are you gonna come visit soon. Mum says you're really far away and we have to catch plane to see you."

"I am very far babe, I'll come visit soon but I'll have to talk to mum about it. I miss you too babe and I mean I really miss you." I smile just wishing I could hug her and hold her like I used to. It hurts knowing left so suddenly. I still remember exactly everything that happened that day.

Every time I left she would cry my name not wanting me to do, I would visit mum once a week for a night and head back to Dads because that where I worked and close to school. I always promised her that next time she can come but never was she allowed to. She would tell me that I can't catch the bus and the day I left she knew I was leaving. I sat next to her in the car and she held my hand the whole time. She kept saying to look at her. When I said goodbye she cried, more then she ever cried and I took everything in me not to leave but I did and I'm so happy she still remembers me.