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Chapter 46

"Ry?" I hear a voice echoes throw the room as my half asleep body is curled up on the couch. "Ryan?" The voice becomes louder, I open my eyes and roll over. Joey is beside me kneeling and looking at me with a worried look on his face. "Come on let's get you to bed."

His arm wraps around my waist and pulls me into him, he lightly picks me up and starts to head to Billies room, I don't want to sleep there without him especially since I'm missing him like crazy.

"Pool house." I mumble, I'm to tired to even make a full sentence. With out missing a beat Joey turn and heads in the other direction to the pool house. The French doors open and the cool breeze against my skin makes shivers run down my spine.

My eyes close as I hear Joeys feet make the grass crunch bellow him. I rest my head on his shoulder and cuddle into him, I hear him sigh as the he steps into the pool house and my back hits the soft mattress. For ages I just watch the bare wall and listen to Joey just walk around getting himself ready for bed. I feel the bed dip the next to me, a duvet is pulled over my body and his snoring sends me to sleep.

Sun shines in my eyes as they open, I roll over to find the spot next to me empty and no sign of anyone. I sit up and let me feet hit the floor as I tie up my hair and wait to see if Joey will appear but there is no one. Without missing a beat and stand up and head to the main house, it's so hot today. I walk in to the house and it seems overly quite, the little red light on the phone is flashing means he have a missed call. I hit the button and Billies voice fill the room.

"Hey babe, your phone must be off so I called here. Call me when your free, I spoke to Joey this morning and he said you were sleeping. Ok love you bye." The line goes dead and the automated voice reminds me that there are no more messages. Where is everyone? And why did Joey call his dad so early?

I redial Billies number and it just rings out, this is strange. I start to over think and freak myself out, I run up the hall and to Jakobs room but it's empty. It's only 8am, where are they?

"Joey." I call out but it just echoes back to me. "Joey!" I yell has loud as I can but once again nothing. I grab my phone of charge in the lounge that I left there the night before. I dial both Jakob and Joeys number but they both go to voice mail. "Danger." This time I scream and let I tear roll down my face. They've left me.

I start to sob and I honestly don't know why, I'm acting like they've been killed but for some reason I'm petrified. The dog isn't even here. I start to hear a ring from my phone in my hand and I look at the unknown number thinking who it may possibly be "Hello?" I say confused.

"It's me." The voice sound familiar but I still have no idea who it is, it's definitely not Billies or the boy which just leaves disappointed. "Ry? It's Cole." I'm shocked and now even more confused. I haven't spoken to Cole for months. "Joey asked me to call to say that we just dropped Jake of at his friends and we are heading back to you now."

A massive relief washed over me, I try to control my heart beating rapidly in my chest. Ok it's fine, my mind is just playing tricks on me. It's all ok.  I look around the room and notice a note on the coffee table that I must have missed. Taking Jake to a friends, be home around 8:30 - love J

"Thanks Cole, I'll see you soon." I toss the phone on the couch and just sigh, what am I doing with my life? I can't be left alone for 10 minutes without freaking out. I just can't figure out where my heads at.

I walk to Billies room and just lay on his bed, I watch the fan above me spin and just beg for him to be home. I've never been so in love with a guy, it's actually insane. I feel sick when I'm away from him, I can't cope without him. He makes me go insane. I curl into a ball and just silently sob, I don't know for how long but I hear the door open and arms wrap around me.

"Shh, Ry its ok. Come one don't cry, come here." Everything in me wants to push Joey away and to get on the next plane to see billie but I know I can't. I just let Joey hold me but nothing compare to feeling I get with Billie, it's irreplaceable. "Cole call Dad, now."

I can't calm down, it's talking everything in me not to smash up this room. I've always had trouble controlling my emotions but slowly with Billie I've been learning to accept them but now I'm struggling. It's really to pin point the actual issue.

Foot step run up the hall and a phone is place to my ear, I rest my head on Joeys shoulder as he presses it against my ear. "Babe it's me, it's ok, everything is ok. Listen to me, I love you, I'll be home soon and I won't leave. Joey and Cole are there, you aren't on your own."

"I love you so much." I feel like my throat is closing up, I can barely even choke out the words. It's driving me insane, there's so much I want to say but I can't do it. "I love you Billie."