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Chapter 48

Morning baby, miss you loads. Heading to sound check, I'll call you before bed. Love you to the moon and back
-beej xx

Ok babe, love you too. Can't wait till you're home, miss you like crazy. Good luck baby.
-Ry xx

I place my phone on the table and look next to me at Joey, he smiles and cuddles into me. I just laugh at how adorable he is, he's like a puppy dying for attention. I push him off and stand up, I'm so bored of lounging around. I grabs his hands and pull him up and start pulling him to the door. He tilts his head in confusing as he pulls me to a stop, I toss him the keys as I ran back and grab my phone.

"Beach?" Joey asks, I don't know how he knew what I was thinking but I have that sudden urge to just go on an adventure. I'm over feeling sorry for myself.

"Perfect." I wink running to the car and jumping into the passenger seat. I watch as Joey locks up the house and take his god damn time to get to the car. "Should we invite the boys?"

I miss the guys so much, they are a massive part of my life and I've slowly been letting them go, Especially Seb. I haven't really spoken to any of them properly since I left everyone in the hotel that night. I'm crazy for thinking I can live without them because I can't, they are all my best friends and have been there for me through everything. I could never ever leave them.

"Yeah that's a good idea, like old times yeah." He kept his eyes on the road but lets on of his hand drop and rest on my leg, which is his way to show comfort.

I shouldn't say this but if Billie and I never happened then Joey would easily have been the guy I fell in love with. He so much like his dad but at the same time they are so different. Joey will always be my best friend and I'll always love him, I always have. Ever since we first met I knew I wouldn't want him to leave me life.

Meet at the beach in 30, hope to see you there xx
-Our little Ry x
Be there soon x
-Maximas x
Same here xx
-Coles holes xx
See you all soon ❤️
-  Seborrhea xx

"They are all in." I look over at Joey and for quick second he looks at me, my heart breaks slightly knowing the pain I've put him through. I don't know how we've managed to get back here.

In the back of my head I'm freaking out about hanging out with the boys again but at the same time I want it to be back to normal. All that's missing is knowing Billie will be there when I get home. He's my everything and I could never loose him.

The trees rush by has we head to the secluded beach, I start to see the ocean come into view. It looks so still and clear. The trees start become less frequent and suddenly we pull into a little open area right by the sand. I jump out and run, I don't care that I left Joey behind. I stand by the edge of the water and just stare into the sunset. I hear more cars pull up and chatting but I don't even turn around, I'm just in administration about how beautiful this place is even though I've been here a hundred times.

I feel arms wrap around me and turn to see Seb behind me, he rests his head on my shoulder and doesn't say anything. It's nice but at the same time I'm freaking out because of how our friendship stands. I nearly lost Billie because of him. I turn and look at him, I open my mouth to say something but he just shakes his head. "Let's not talk about it."

Part of me is thankful that we don't have to talk, I don't even know what I'd say. I look over my shoulder and past Seb, the boys are sitting in s circle in the sand trying to light a fire to keep us warm. Seb walk off to help and on cue my phone goes off.

Hey babe, I'll call you in the morning. We got rushed out of the arena and to an interview. Love you xx
-Beej xx

I don't reply straight away knowing there no point because he busy. I walk over to the boys and find my spot next the Joey. He wraps his arm around my waste and holds me close. I hope none of this changed when billie comes home, I hope Joey doesn't go back to being jealous and the boys decide to walk away from the drama like they did before. I love them all way to much.

"So Ry, how's everything been? With being off the road, billie on tour and everything." The way max said came across a little bitter and sarcastic, honestly I don't expect anything more, I've never treated these guys right but it's time to turn it around.

"Honestly it's been really hard but I've had Joey with me and Jakob, I honestly thought it would have been worse. I just miss being on the road with him" I shyly laugh, tucking my hair behind my ear and looking at the ground. I love him so much.

"You always have us Ry, you know that" Cole says placing a Hand my knee, Seb smile and nods while handing me a beer. I go to take it but honestly I have no urge to drink, the thought of alcohol makes me feel sick to my stomach.

The boys have a drink in their hand as the we all talk and watch the beautiful sunset come to end, Music plays in the background and it just feels perfect.