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Chapter 39

Today is the day I have to say good bye, one week away from Billie will be ok.. Right? I wake up early with Billie holding me tight in his arms, I turn wanting to to be able to see his face as much as possible before he heads off. I watch as his eyes open and a smile appears on his lips, today is the day. "Morning beautiful."

"Morning handsome." I giggle running my hands through Billies hair, I lean in a softly press my lips against Billies and close my eyes just wanting to be in the moment. "I don't know what I'm going to do for a week."

"FaceTime me everyday." Billie chuckles once again kissing me, he looks gorgeous, the way the light seeping through the windows makes his skin glow. I feel like when I look at Billie there isn't a single flaw I can point out, because every single part of him make him who he is and to me he is perfection.

"I will but you have to text me when you're free I'll most likely be bored out of my mind." I say smiling, I run my hand over Billies back and back up to his shoulder where my hand stays. I can't help but to feel like I need to be in contact with Billie all the time, I wish he could just be attached at the him.

"You know I will, you are my everything and I don't think I could go 2 seconds without checking up on you." Billie pulls me tight and let's his warm fingers trace lines over my skin, he draws patterns around my tattoos as if he was adding onto them. "I remember when you came home with your first one, Joey took you to get it and you brought pizza home with you, I remember you wore a black skater dress with a denim jacket, you had on converse and your hair was dyed blonde, I remember watching you dance around having the greatest time of your life, Joey had you in his arm as he look at you with love in his eyes. If only you knew I was also looking at you in that way because that was the day that I finally confessed to myself that it's ok to be in love again."

I was shocked that Billie could remember such an event because I don't even really recall what happened that day but I do remember that was the day Joey and I snuck into an abandoned house and danced forever in each others arms, I remember just wanting to take away Joey's innocence  but I knew I couldn't so we ended up coming home and I left for a party. "Billie that was the best day I ever had with your son, I remember feeling like for the first time ever someone cared but now the memory hurts because as much as he cared at the same time he didn't give to shits about my emotions."

My eyes start to water and I can't believe a memory of the same day can be so different from each other's point of views. I'm never going to get that relationship back with Joey and it hurts but I think it's time that I take a step into my future and say yes my memories with Joey were great but now it's time to move on and make new ones. The first memory is going to be Billies beautiful face on a gorgeous morning, the birds chirping and the comfort of being with each other.

'I remember the first time we actually properly talked, it was a month after you came home with Joey. I could never get him away from you, it was like you were both attached at the hip but one day you got the flu and Joey had band stuff so I looked after you. We talked for hours, You told me everything. Your eyes were so bright and full of lust, I wanted you, but at that point I didn't know you wanted the same thing.' I wanted to cry hearing this come out of his mouth. He remembers everything, I thought he just saw me as his sons friend but no, he knew we had a connection.

"You can always have me Billie, I'm always yours." My face inches towards him, he look at my lips and then back to my eyes. His lips softly touch mine, he laughs before kissing me once again. Our legs tangle in the sheets as we kiss. I don't want him to leave.

"I love you."

"I love you too." I feel like we don't say it enough, I've loved Billie for so long but I was always to scared of my feelings towards him. I learnt that's it's ok to love and I couldn't be happy, now I just feel like I've wasted to much time being scared.

"I got you a present." Billies smiles and reaches over the side of the bed, he turns and faces me with a bag in his hands. "Open it."

A little box lies with in the bag, my hand runs over the case before I open it completely. I dainty little necklace lies inside. I look and Billie and back at the necklace, my heart races as I read what written on the heart charm Stuck with me. "Billie..."

"Not matter what I love, I could be on the other side of the country and you'll be mine. I love you, nothing will change that, you can do anything and I'll never stop loving you. It's us Ryan, forever and always is to clique so I'll just say you're stuck with me." To think there was a chance I was going to leave Billie forever is beyond me, I could never leave him.

"I love you so much, I don't want to see you walk out the door but I know you have too. I would come with you but your family is now mine and if you have to go I have to watch the boys. Just promise me that when you come back you'll run through those door and never leave."