Under The Sheets

Epilogue: The Night With Him

After a few minutes of biking, we finally arrive at a lake. I placed my bicycle near a tree while Niall's was placed beside mine. I started walking towards the lake which is currently frozen due to the season, but when it's not winter, it is actually nice in this place.

I sat on a rock and at once, Niall was already seated beside me.

"This is such a nice place" Niall said while looking around.

"This is actually a lake and I'm really sorry because I brought you here when all along the season we have right now is not the good time to see the view which is why the lake is frozen into ice" I reply.

"It's fine" he smiles, showing off his white teeth.

It is actually quite dark already but thanks to the bright street lights behind us, we can still se the nice view of the lake. I got up from my position and decided to lie on the cold snow.

"I just wish life could be as peaceful as this environment" I say while closing my eyes.

"Life will never be fair. The truth hurts and we all should just accept that" Niall's volume turn down.

"I really don't see what will I be doing in the future. It seems like my life just suddenly stop after brea-" I realize what was I about to say so I immediately stop and kept quiet.

There was a moment of awkward silence when I stop and I'm seriously waiting for Niall to say a word but it seems like nothing's going to come out of his mouth.

"I'm sorry" he said.

"What?"

"I'm sorry for all the shit that I did and for hurting you badly, making it hard for me to get you back" those words came out of his mouth at once and I'm frozen in place.

"I-" I am seriously out of words.

"You don't have to say anything" he says. "I just want to let you know that I have change. For the past three months, I was on a therapy and I went to Ireland to collect my thoughts because that is what my doctor recommended".

Is he seriously opening up to me right now?

"My life style has change. Basically, everything changed." Niall continues. "But there is only one thing that never changed".

"And what is that?" I suddenly had the guts to ask.

"My feelings" he answers. "I know you know me as the Niall who isn't expressive with his feelings. A Niall who has an anger management problem and a Niall who isn't sweet. I admit that this is somehow cliché but I'm telling you this because I want you to know the whole truth. Diana, I love you. I still love you. Time might have passed by, like the clouds being blown by the wind, that we are no longer together but I just want you to know that I care for you and all of the times we were together is not a waste of time".

Tears started forming around my eyes as I listen to him.

"Those times are still kept in my brain because I know for sure that they are the best memories of my life. I definitely am not expecting you to have the same feelings again, but for once, I know this will hurt on my part." His voice is becoming shaky. "I have decided to go back to where I owe my change to. I am leaving New York. I am leaving the United States".

"Where are you going?" I bit my lip so that he wouldn't notice that I am crying.

He sniff and for all that I know he is also crying. "I am going back to Ireland and stay there for good. I want you to be happy Diana and you know that, right? I know your life wouldn't just revolve around me that is why I am letting you go. Before leaving, I just want to say that I love you and thank you for making me strong in times that I feel weak. I am so sorry for the pain that I have caused you and for everything."

I got up from my position and look at him. All of a sudden, he engulfs me with a tight hug and cries on my shoulder. My tears is just continuously running down my cheeks but I don't let a sound. I return his hug with a soft but sweet hug.

"I will miss you. Your scent, your presence, and everything else. I love you Diana" Niall said in between his cries.

He lets go of me and stood up. I also stood up and we stared at each other's eyes for a long time. Niall wipes his tears with the back of his hand and bit his lip.

"I love you, Diana".

He turn his back on me and started walking away. I watch every step he take and I can feel the heavy load on my chest as he walk away. When he was a couple of meters away, I can't take it any longer so I shouted.

"Wait!" He stop on his track.

I run to him and hug him while his back is facing my face. I cried harder when I did that.

"Niall," I said softly. "Please, don't go. Don't leave me alone. I love you" I cry.

In a swift move, he remove my hands from his waist and turn around to face me. Just like that, he was kissing me passionately. Our lips were in a sync motion and he wipes my tears with his thumb while kissing me. Everything feels like in a slow motion.

He pulled away and press our foreheads together, and my ehes remain close.

"I love you, Diana. I love you so much" he presses his lips into mine and we stayed like that for a long time.

(Aaaaahhh!!!! It's already the end of the story. Please read the Author's note on the next part I love you guys)