Under The Sheets

80. Begins

(Just to let you guys know that I'll be updating a chapter every friday, but I could have an advance update, depends. But expect me to update a part every friday)

Ready Or Not by Bridgit Mendler

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Niall's P.O.V

Today is the day I'm scheduled to start my therapy with Dr. Albert, maybe it will be good for me to do the therapy. I took a quick shower and change the hospital gown that I've been wearing for almost a week, into a skinny jeans and white shirt, obviously my usual style. I style my hair into a quiff and sprayed my whole body with my perfume.

It's not like I'm trying to impress the therapist, it's just my style besides I don't feel comfortable with those hospital gown. I eat my breakfast, obviously not from the hospital cause the food in here is not my taste.

After eating my breakfast, I drank all my medications and waited for the therapist. While doing that, I open a drawer and there I found my new iPhone. The last time I use this phone is when I called mom and ask her if Diana came. I exhaled heavily and decided to remove the sim card.

I cut it into half and flush it in the toilet. I need to learn how to move on. I've been thinking all night about it, and I decided to just forget about her, after all, she's probably trying to forget me as well.

Suddenly, I heard an abrupt knock on the door, and I immediately put the phone back in the drawer and close it.

"Come in!" I said loud enough for the person outside to hear.

Doctor Albert came in and smiled at me, which made me smiled back.

"Nice to see you, Mr. Horan" Dr. Alberts take a seat on the stool.

I walk towards him and sat on the couch facing him.

"Will we start now?" I asked.

"If you want to" Dr. Albert replied.

"I want to start" I said.

"Well, then tell me the main cause of your depression" He says as he take a note pad and pen out of his pocket.

"I-it started when me and my girlfriend both left the house. She went to see her bestfriend, while I excused myself that I'm going over my brother's house which is not true" I started and the therapist scribbles something down on his notepad.

"Where did you exactly go?" Dr. Albert asked pushing his glasses up to his nose.

"I went to see Cynthia Rose" tears started froming around my eyes "Cynthia Rose is just my screen girlfriend before. She isn't really my girlfriend. We just show the media that we're a couple, because it was her parent's wish, and I was also force to show it worldwide because as what they say, through this we can show how rich our family is" a tear finally came out of my eye.

"Why did you lie to your girlfriend?" He keeps on throwing me questions and writing things on his notepad, everytime I speak.

"Because I know she'll get mad if she finds out" I explained "Well, it's been actually a long time since I've spoken to Cynthia Rose. I actually hated her, but when we came home from our vacation in Australia, there's something in me that's needs pleasure" .

"If you say pleasure what do you mean by that?" Dr. Albert started spinning his pen.

"Sex" I look down on my foot.

"So when you felt like you needed pleasure, you contacted Cynthia Rose, is that right?" He tries to confirm.

"Yes!" I nod.

"Why did you call Cynthia Rose and not your girlfriend instead?".

"It's because I'm afraid that she won't want to have sex with me, and I don't want to force her if she doesn't want to" I said "If I don't get what I want, there's a tendency that I might hurt her and I don't want that to happen" .

It actually surprise me because I've never thought that I'd be spilling evreything to this therapist. At first I thought he's some kind of psychopath, but after all, he's nice. Dr. Albert haven't help me and yet I'm telling all these things to him. It seriously surprised me. I never thought I can do it.

"But you did hurt her now, cause with my predictions, she probably knew about it already. She won't leave you without a reason and we both know that" Dr. Albert said calmly.

"But why wouldn't she just wait for me there, if she already knew about it, and listen to my explanation?" I ask in between sobs.

"I think she had enough. Mr. Horan, you should know that no mattter how long the girl has been strong to stay with you, there will be a time, she would have to let go because she knows she has been strong enough for a long time" he explains "Did you really had sexual intercourse with Cynthia Rose?" He added.

"No!" I immediately answered.

Dr. Albert writes something down and place his pen and notepad back to his pocket.

"As what I've observe on how you talk to me, I noticed that, you aren't just physically ill" he says.

"What do you mean?" I really didn't understand what he meant to say.

"You're not just physically ill, but you're also emotionally and mentally ill" the therapist explains.

"I see" I nod.

"I have a prescription for you but I'm not gonna write it down, since you can't buy it in a pharmacy" Dr. Albert said " I suggest that you should take your medications for another week, and I really think that you should go to a place where reminds you of your great memories, just like the place where you were born. You should stay there for a couple of months or three, depends on your progress".

"Thank you!" I wipe my tears.

"I hope you take my advice" the therapist stood up and place the stool back to where he got it and added, "Thank you for your time Mr. Horan".

"Thank you!" I smiled and he leaves the room.

When Dr. Albert left the room, I let my body fall on the bed. Right now, I'm thinking about his advice. This will be a long day to think about everything.

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