A Different Kind of Devotion (R5 Fanfiction)

Riker's POV

I was finally allowed to go see Hanaa. The doctor came out and said we could go see her, but only one at a time. Everyone agreed I should go in since she was my girlfriend.

I sat next to her bed, holding her cold hand in mine. She had an IV in her arm and a ton of other tubes that had a job I wasn't sure about.

I sat with my head bowed, and suddenly I heard a loud alarm going off. My head snapped up. Doctors swarmed into the room, and wheeled Hanaa's bed out. They left so fast I didn't have time to ask what was going on. Mom bustled in, followed by the rest of the family.

"Can we go home?" I whimpered, close to tears.

"Of course," Mom whispered.

When I got home, I just sat on the couch staring off into space. Mom dragged me into dinner, but I just stirred my food around on my plate. After five minutes of silence and me staring down at my plate, Mom got up and took my plate. She nodded for me to go and I went up to lay on my bed. I fell asleep staring at my ceiling.

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I stood in front of the doctor, my face slack.

"I'm sorry sir, but Ms. Parks has passed."

I started to cry. This isn't happening. This can't be happening.

"That blow to the head was too much for her to take," he continued. "I actually didn't expect her to live this long."

I broke. "Even if you didn't believe in her, I did! I believed she could make it, but I guess I'm not smart enough to know!" I spat out angrily.

The doctor put a hand on my arm. "Would you like to go in and see her?" he asked gently.

I nodded. He led me into the room and closed the door as he left. I sat down at Hanaa's side and started speaking.

"I'm sorry Hanaa. I shouldn't have left you alone with that jerk. This is all my fault. But you know I love you. I love you with all my heart. If you're listening, just know I will never stop loving you. When I get older, I'll adopt a girl from Peru, just like you always dreamed. You may not be here with me, but you'll still be in my heart and head. I'm sorry."