IF I FALL - #Wattys2016

WHAT I WANT, WHAT I NEED | LYA

I woke up in heaven. It was like I had been deprived from something vital for 5 years and was now given a taste of it again. And I knew that one taste would get me addicted again.

His arms were firmly wrapped around me, holding me close to his naked body. When Was the last time I woke up with that fullness feeling? Probably 5 years ago... When I slept in his arms for the last time.

A smile drew on my lips as I remembered the events of the night. Amazing... It was was just amazing.

Only him could give me that much pleasure. It was not a question of experience or performance... It was simply because it was him... I knew that now. Nobody would ever make me feel that way again.

I checked at the time... Damn... It was already past 9 am... I was supposed to be at work... Work... Dwayne...

I never ever imagined myself being able to hurt the person I'd be with. Dwayne had always been everything I wanted my boyfriend to be: charming, nice, attentive, dedicated... Trustworthy... Yet, here I was... Sleeping in some other guy's arms and betraying the trust he placed in me, destroying that relationship that took so long to built...

I slowly moved away from Tom's arms and quietly got up.

Now what? What was I supposed to do? Go to work and act as if nothing happened? Tell Dwayne the truth?

I couldn't even explain it to myself... I couldn't even think of how nor why it happened. It just happened...and it was very confusing.

I went to the shower, thinking I needed to go... Somehow I thought it would help me think straight.

The warm water on my skin felt awesome and made my body shiver. I closed my eyes and remembered everything. His words, his hands, his lips, his body, his arms... I immediately a warm feeling invading me. It really did happen...

It started with his words... These words I thought I'd never hear. These words that hurt so much because I had been convincing myself for so long that believing them was a lie. Yet he said them. He said what I secretely always wanted him to say.

I still could feel the softness of his hands on me, the warmth of his skin against mine, the insane feeling left by each one of his kisses... That night was incredible.

But now what? Was it just a memento of the past? Was there any other feelings wrapped in his words? How was I supposed to act? I couldn't even sort my feelings... I was confused... Confused between my feelings for him... And my actual situation. What was I supposed to do?

I suddenly felt his arms wrapping around my waste and his body pressed on my back. I jumped in surprised, definitely not expecting him to appear.

"You were really thinking of taking that shower without me?" He whispered to my hear in a deep voice.

I felt myself blushing at the situation. "I... Errrr... I didn't want to wake you up"

"But how am I supposed to make the most of you if you don't?"

With just a few words and the feeling of his hands on me, he made my head spin and I was on the verge of begging for more of his touch.

"Aren't we... Supposed to talk about... You know... What happened?" I hesitantly asked, lost between the pleasure caused my his lips softly kissing my shoulder and my reason.

He made me spin around so I could face him. His eyes were still half closed but he had a sly grin on his lips. His messily shaved growing breard gave him a savage look that didn't leave me indifferent. Just by looking at him, I instantly wanted him.