In Drummer Heaven

Good Luck

About a month later it's creeping closer to July. Both Crüe and Poison leave on tour in July. It's going to be hard being away from Bret, I mean he's my boyfriend. It's going to be hard being away from Nikki, he's my best friend after all. I hope it will be easier without Tommy around but I'm gonna miss him, I'm going to miss him a lot.

We got called into the studio the last week of June, we're finished record so we're kinda confused. We sit on the leather couches in the waiting area, Rosie and Jade are flipping through magazines. I kick one of Dani's high heels.

"Why the hell do you wear those?" I ask and she rolls her eyes.

"Because I'm five foot one and when I wear these I'm about your height. You're what? Five six or five seven?" Dani asks and I nod.

"One or the other, I can't remember." I admit. "I know for sure that if I wore those shoes I'd be like six foot one and I could look Tommy in the eye."

"Funny how you said Tommy and not Bret." She says and I look at her.

"He's the tallest one in our group." I explain. "That's all."

"Are you sure you still don't have feelings for Tommy? I mean Bret isn't half the man that--"

"Can we stop talking about this?" I ask.

Maybe I do still have some feelings for Tommy.....or a lot of feelings for Tommy. I know that we can't be together so there's no point in even thinking about that. I mean I would love to be with Tommy but I can't do that to the girls, this is our dream.

Dani has told me a couple of times that she thinks I forced myself to move on. I don't know if she's right or wrong to be completely honest. I mean I think about Tommy a lot for someone who's dating Bret but I think about Bret too. I mean he's my boyfriend, I think about him just Tommy is always in the back of my head.

"You know, Bret told CC and CC told me." Dani says and I look at her.

"What did Bret tell CC and then CC told you?" I ask and she smiles.

"That you called out Tommy a couple of times in the, ahem, bedroom." She states and my eyes grow.

That's not a lie but I can't believe Bret told CC, I'm not all that surprised CC told Dani though. I mean it turned into this huge argument and we didn't talk to each other for a week.

"I don't believe it for a second that you're over him, you know." Dani tells me. "Tommy's not over you either. So CC and I will be there when you two stop lying to yourselves to say we told you so."

"D, it was either break up with Tommy or the band wouldn't make it. I could do that and make everyone else sacrifice what they love." I say. "It wasn't a matter of we stopped loving each other."

"It would've been hard but we all would've understood." She says.

"I couldn't ever ask you guys to go that." I admit.

The secretary tells us to go back to our manager's office. We walk down the hall and Jade hits my arm.

"What did you do this time, Darc?" Jadie laughs and I smile.

"Not me this time." I laugh.

We walk towards the office and Rosie (being Rosie) politely knocks on the door. Our manager calls us inside. Rosie opens the door and we all file in behind her. Standing in our manager's office as well is Crüe.

Well isn't this familiar.

"Darcy, do you have any idea why I called you in here?" Our manager asks.